ruthie.

2007-09-16T07:52:00.001+08:00

2007-08-25T08:31:00.000+08:00

I start school soon. September 4. I will still work, maybe until October. Because I wanna get rich and go home and bring everyone pasalubong :)
***

September's just a week away. I wonder if Starbucks has the planner promo here. The nearest Starbucks in my home is a 30minutes away. That sucks. America lives on Dunkin Donuts they say.

***

It's getting colder here. I can feel it. I go to sleep looking like lumpia now. All wrapped up in the comforter's comfort. I don't look forward to Winter, or the snow. I don't look forward to wearing big furry bear boots, and big polar bear coats. But I do forward to seeing sled dogs and wolves in Alaska.

***

I still hate it here. I wish to meet an angsty Filipino immigrant soon. Can't wait to get passionate about rage in Tagalog. I miss saying tangina and takte before every sentence I utter. I seldom use Tagalog here. I always speak Bicol, though, with my family. I say every gadamn Bicolano curse word I know religiously every day. Every little shock, I say 'Ay sa buli nina nya'. No exaggeration. Even if cursing is unneccessary, I say it. Just for the heck of saying it. I miss hearing it. My mouth is so dirty I swear my lolo [mother's side] would be so proud of me. He was a curser himself. Yay.

2007-07-05T10:08:00.000+08:00

Ballad of Balangiga
Radioactive Sago Project

September 27, 1901
Dahil sa treaty of paris
binenta tayo ng mga shet conio de puta
Sa mga kano, at mula noon ay naging kakambal
Na natin ang kamalasan dahil palagi na lang
Tayong damay sa mga away ni Amboy,
Lumusob ang mga anak ni Uncle Sam
At nanunog, nang-rape, namaril,
Nang-torture, nagnakaw sa buong bayan.

Sa isla ng Samar,
Dumating ang mga ‘kano sa bayan ng Balangiga.
So isang umaga, ang mga magigiting na mamamayan
Ng Balangiga ay nagplano:
"Ihawin na natin ang Amerikano!"
Nagsuot sila ng mga damit pambabae
Lumusob ng umaga
At pinagtataga ang mga Amerikanong sundalo habang sila ay nag aalmusal

Ito na nga ang naging Balangiga massacre—
Pero massacre para kanino?
Massacre daw ayon sa kasaysayan ng Amerikano.
E putanginang leche yan—
Paano magiging massacre eh nagtatanggol lang naman tayo?
Pag may pumasok bang magnanakaw
Sa bahay mo at pinatay mo ang magnanakaw
E kasalanan mo pa rin ba yun?
I mean, I hope you don’t mind, and won’t take offense,
we did it in self-defense

At bumawi ang mga kano—
Nag-utos si Gen. Jacob Smith na sunugin ang Samar
“I want you : I want you to kill and burn, the more you kill
and burn, the better you will please me!” sabi niya.
And that meant anybody ten years or older,
Marunong magsalita, wasto ang katawan
Lahat kailangang madamay sa madugong katayan.

At iyan po ang ibig sabihin ng benevolent assimilation:
Pang-aabuso, pagnanakaw, assassination
Panloloko, pang-gagago, pang-iinsulto
Kung tratuhin tayo parang kuto

And after New York and World Trade Center
We say: “We are all Americans. We are all Americans.”
Fuck that shit.
Ikaw na lang.
Fuck that shit.
Kayo na lang.
Bahala kayo sa buhay niyo.
Kayo na lang maging Amerikano.
Fuck that shit.

Wag nang maulit
Pero naulit
ang kasaysayang lagi na lang
Napipilipit

Happy 4th of July America.

Taken from my new blog:

"'Si Ruth? Dai naghihiling? Ma-amerikano na sya!' - one auntie says.
TRANSLATION:
'Si Ruth? Hindi nanonood? Mag-aamerikano na sya e!'

Napa-tsss ako ng malakas eh. Sabi ng utak ko fuck that shit. Fuck that shit. Ikaw na lang. Fuck that shit. Kayo na lang. Bahala kayo sa buhay niyo. Kayo na lang maging Amerikano. Fuck that shit."

Bow.

2007-06-25T09:44:00.000+08:00

I have a new one. Message me.

2007-04-09T18:16:00.000+08:00

Happy Easter.

I'm home. I lost my wallet. I left it in the bus. I AM STUPID. My mom doesn't know yet. Must remind self to tell her ASAP.

I'm more depressed than usual. Raisa sent me this text about sadness being self inflicted. RAR. I agree. But how can I not self inflict sadness with such life situations I have.

My life is SERIOUSLY going down the drain.. :( :( :( I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!

We're booked. April 25. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK! FUCK!!!! FUCK!!!!!!! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!!!!! :( :( :( :( :( :( I SERIOUSLY HOPE TO DIE BEFORE APRIL 12 [release of grades].

We will San Francisco ourselves first before we go to NY and NJ. May 6 we will New Jersey ourselves. ANYBODY WANNA TRADE LIVES? I don't care if you're running away from the police. I'd gladly welcome such an interesting way of living. LEAVING MIGRATING FUCK IS FUCK! IT IS SHIT! I HATE I HATE I HATE!!!!! I HOPE EVERYTHING'S JUST A ~~DREAM~~ NIGHTMARE BUT IT FUCKING ISN'T :(

I DON'T WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE!!! :( :( :( I GIVE UP!!!!

2007-03-21T16:53:00.000+08:00

After my History class today, I met up with Juju. He just finished his Psych LT.

"Major depression ka!"
"WTF."
"Oo! Kakaaral ko lang nun! Yung mga nararamdaman mo, andun sa symptoms!"
"GAGO!!"
"Oo nga seryoso! [takes out his notes] O ayan! Nung nagaaral nga ako naalala kita. Sabi ko 'Si Ruthie 'to!' Kaya nga rin nakasagot ako dun sa exam e. Naalala kita!"
"Walangya ginawa mo pa akong example!"
"Seryoso nga. O eto tingnan mo. [enumerates the symptoms and says 3-5 out of the 9 I experience]. O diba!"
"Hindi! Patingin nga!"
[Both of us looks at the paper]
"O sige pwedeng hindi. Pero ito ikaw na 'to! Ikaw 'to tingnan mo/"
"Pota."
"Dali!!"
[We look at the second type of depression]
"O ayan mas sakto! Chronic depression! Ayan ikaw mismo! Psychologer na ako!"
"..."
"Dali ayusin natin!"
"..." [having difficulty accepting the pseudo-analysis]
'Huy."
"HINDI! HINDI AKO DEPRESSED!!"
"..."
"Hindi nga! Hindi! Hindi!"
"..."
"Ano??"
"..."
"..."
"..."
"Wala ba dyang cure?"
"Haha wala nasa powerpoint."
"E wala naman palang silbi."
"Reresearch ako."
"HAYNAKO."
"Bigyan kita diploma. [insists on giving me the rolled up fucking paper filled with notes about depression]."

RAAAR!! And I thought I was just joking about being depressed. Shit. Now I'm researching about it..

Well..

He's right.. :(

FUCK.
***
READ HERE TO SEE IF YOU ARE DEPRESSED TAMBIEN [and to help me too hehe].

2007-03-16T11:57:00.000+08:00

Hindi nag-aaral si Juju. Ang yabang kasi, si seamonkeyng lang daw ang teacher nya kaya no sweat LT. Aboingk! Aboingk!

2007-03-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

Marunong ka bang magdasal?

"Lord sana bigyan mo ako ng kotse. Pretty please."

"Lord sana mataas makuha kong grade."

"Lord please sana makahanap na ako ng boypren."

"Lord please naman sana manalo na ako sa lotto."

"Lord sana makapulot ako ng gintong ngipin."

"Lord last na talaga 'to sana mataas grade ko talaga please please."

"Lord sana makita ko crush ko."

"Lord please sana naman maganda na ang magiging araw ko."

"Lord tulungan nyo naman ako sa mga problema ko."

Ako. Ako. Ako. Ako. Sana. Ako. Ako. Ako.

........Ako.
........Ako.
AkoAkoAkoAko
AkoAkoAkoAko
........Ako.
........Ako.
........Ako.
........Ako.

Nasaan na sila? Ikaw? Siya? Eres? Es? Sois? Estais? Esta? Estan? Son?

Wala lang.. Napansin niyo rin bang kadalasan lumalapit tayo sa kanya kapag may nangangailangan tayo, kapag depressed at down tayo. Parang iyon lang ang kadalasang mga panahon na naglalaan tayo ng oras para sa taimtim na pakikipag-usap sa kanya. Mas madali kasing lumapit, sa kahit sino -- kaibigan, nanay, tatay, mga botante, lola, sa Diyos, teacher, driver, katulong, mangingisda, kapag may kailangan, di ba? Hindi madalas na nagkakamustahan lang kayo. Hindi madalas na lumalapit ka, mangangamusta, chika chika, na talagang galing sa puso as in engrossed na engrossed ka sa usapan.

Ang kadalasang pa nating dahilan sa "hindi sinasadyang" pagkakalimot sa pagdasal ay.. Chenchenenen! Maganda na ang buhay, sobrang ayos lahat, hindi ko pa kailangan.. Kapag may nangyari na, saka na ako magbabalik-loob. Kapag bumagsak na ako sa Accounting, kapag nalanta na ang alaga kong halaman, kapag puti na ang uwak. Basta saka na. Marami na sa atin ang dumaan sa ganitong stage. Pero hindi ba't mas dapat pa nga tayong lumapit sa kanya kapag maganda, at maayos ang buhay? Kailangan pa ba nating hintaying may mangyaring masama?

Hmm.. Wala lang. Para lang sa akin, mali ang pagdasal na puro lang hiling. Puro lang sa sarili. O di kaya'y puro na rin lang pasasalamat. Makipagkuwentuhan naman tayo. Magnilay-nilay.. na kasama Siya.

Ikaw, marunong ka ba talagang magdasal?

Siguro namimiss ka na Niya.

2007-03-12T13:30:00.000+08:00

Wala akong memory. Hindi ko maalalang nangyari, at sinulat ko ito:

February 16th, 2006
Don't Leave Your things or else they might leave you. -rizal

Sabi ko wala akong pakialam kung mamisinterpret ako basta't nasabi ko ang gusto kong sabihin. Inisip ko kanina kung tama ang nasabi ko. Baka namisinterpret ko ang sarili ko. Isang oras akong nakaupo sa Caf Up pagkatapos ng Taek class ko. Mag-isa. Parang wala akong kailangang gawin. Nakatingin sa bote ng C2 at mineral water. Nakatingin sa oreo cookie na hindi naubos at naiwan kasama ang mga bote. Nakatingin sa labas. Sa Kotska. Sa Doghouse. Sa Zen Garden. Pabalik balik lang. Paulit ulit. Napaka redundant. Pati yung iniisip ko, paulit ulit. Nagtatalo ang iba't ibang ideya. Sumasalungat ang lahat.

Nawala ang focus ko. May tumawag sakin. Sakin nga ba? Hindi ako tumingin. Nakinig. Wala. Ako ba ang tinatawag? Bakit parang 'thie' ang narinig ko at hindi 'dy'? Ako? Ako pa ba si Ruthie o napalitan na ang pangalan ko? What's in a name in which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet? Ano nga ba ang nasa pangalan?

Tumingin ako sa likod. Blockmate ko sa Taek. Ako nga ang tinawag kanina.

Hello.
Hi.
Ok ka na?
Oo na. Tinatawag kita kanina.
Oo, akala ko hindi ako e. Nagpunta ka na sa infirmary?
Haha. Oo na.
Mabuti. Sige.
Sige.

Balik na sa pag-iisip. Ilayo muna ang sarili sa real world. Ano na nga ba iniisip ko kanina?

Nawala. Nawala na. Sana nagisip na lang ako kung ano ang Salita ng Taon.

*suddenly: importanteng maintindihan ang nais mong ipahayag.
***
Wala lang. Gumagawa ako history paper. At sabi 'to forget the past is never an option'. But I always forget. Does this mean hindi ako nagpapahalaga? :

2007-03-12T12:00:00.000+08:00

If the descent is thus sometimes performed in sorrow, it can also take place in joy.

Yeah right.

2007-02-25T00:08:00.000+08:00

I don't like my parents today. They make decisions FOR ME without even asking me what I want for myself and how I feel about their decision. Whose life am I living, theirs?? What am I, their life extension? Why didn't they say so. If they told me earlier then I could have save all of us the but-I-don't-want-to-study-there-nor-live-there-forever-and-be-discriminated-by-americans-etc-and-have-a-hard-time-adjusting-to-a-new-place drama. To think the mother told me she'll tell the father I don't want to live, while the father said they'll consider what I want. To think [again] they told me they don't want me to live and just file for LOA next SY. Whad do you know.. I guess they're all the same.. All words. UGH. They suddenly tell me about this just now. UGH. Surprised me to tears.

FUCK "MY" LIFE!!

2007-02-23T12:56:00.000+08:00

I am seated beside a freak. His hair looks like this:And Burn wants to copy his hairstyle. What a sick sad little world..

2007-02-21T09:06:00.000+08:00

Remind yourself that they are the ones who will hold you still.

My thoughts exploding in thousands of pieces.

When you notice yourself as something more than just a reflection you'll see it's not me I guess I'm trying to say, I know it's not love but I've been trying I've been trying to let you know so come close, this is who we are come on, you can show yourself so come close, this is who we are come on, you can be yourself again.

It looks so beautiful when I know it's not love.

Hah! Wala lang, killing time :)

2007-02-20T18:59:00.000+08:00

I think I will never look at a Kiwi the same way again.

Labo. Haha.

I'm still at the Lib, I didn't notice time. Oh time. Flies by so fast.. As if it was Forrest Gump. Speaking of Forrest, it's been such a long time since I last ate shrimp.. Imma tomorrow :D

NCM's almost over, by the way :) I can finally stop being grumpy after months of preparing and PMSing over it. HURRAY FOR FREEDOM! :) Just one more event on Friday and I'm half free weeee! We still have to evaluate and document and shit haha.

Wait, I don't want to talk about that. Hmm.. I honestly do not know what I'm going to talk about.

..

..

Maybe I can talk about why I'm not updating as frequent as before. Well, you see, my laptop's infected by this weird IExplorer virus. Laptop wont open any page. Nor detect internet. Tried downloading several antivirus, I just can't seem to clean it. I hate much.. I'll just reformat my laptop come summer. And install a hardcore anti-virus. ZoneAlarm, me thinks, doesn't work that well. Maybe a Panda will do better. What do you think?

Okay moving on..

My life's okay the past 2 weeks. Long time since my bed and I spent some quality time. Not to mention the movies I bought months ago for my.. uhh.. viewing pleasure haha. Going back. Yeah, I couldn't believe it when I had nothing to do slash to procrastinate slash cram slash nothing to rant about [well except for jake and *k* issues hahaha]. Heaven :)

But of course I still cram a lot despite all the time in my hands hahahaha. And gimik a lot too. And have difficulty waking up for History :D I don't give a fuck. For now, haha.

Hrmm..

What does it take to make people happy?

Goodbye :)

2007-02-20T17:54:00.000+08:00

I sleepy. Will update later, hahahaha.

2007-02-20T14:48:00.000+08:00

It's been such a long time! I still don't have time to update :( I will soon, maybe later yehey!

Yesterday we had our Christmas exchange gift slash 19 year old Loubot's post birdy celebration in Yellowcab. Hahahaha.

I have PolSci, I am late.

BABU!

2007-01-30T02:50:00.000+08:00

I'VE BECOME LIKE SOMEONE I HATED [no not jake] WITHOUT NOTICING IT SHIT I HATE I HATE I FEEL SO BAD I WASN'T EVEN AWARE I WAS AM HURTING YOU :( :( :( I AM SO SORRY I THOUGHT I HANDLED OUR SITUATION FINE AND I THOUGHT THINK YOU WERE DOING FINE SINCE YOU SHOWED ARE SHOWING ME YOU WERE ARE DOING FINE BUT THEN YOU WERE ARE JUST PRETENDING TO BE FINE OHSHIT EVERYTHING IS JUST A FACADE I'M SORRY I'M SORRY I DIDN'T DONT MEAN TO HURT YOU MAYBE I MISINTERPRETED YOU OR YOU MISINTERPRETED ME OR WE BOTH MISINTERPRETED EACH OTHER MYGAD NOW I'M SO ASHAMED I THINK I CAN'T FACE YOU ANYMORE FUUUCK I'LL TRY TO MAKE IT UP TO YOU I'M SO SORRY SORRY SORRY JUST DIDN'T DON'T WANT YOU TO EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ME BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT TO DISAPPOINT YOU SORRY BECAUSE I THOUGHT AND STILL THINK THAT IF I CONTINUED TO BE WHATEVER NEVERMIND BOTTOMLINE IS I REALIZED JUST NOW THAT I'VE BEEN UNFAIR TO YOU AND TO OTHER PEOPLE AS WELL FAVORING [i admit] ONE OVER EVERYONE ELSE I'M SO SORRY NOW I REALIZE AGAIN THAT WHAT I'M DOING NOW ISN'T EXACTLY WHAT I ENVISIONED MYSELF DOING HWOOOOOOH ANG SAMA KONG TAO

:( :( :(

I'm sorry Lord.

2007-01-22T10:32:00.000+08:00

Decided not to post. Instead spend time researching on my Hotel Rwanda paper. WOOOOOO. Midterms in EU22 tomorrow. Group paper deadline tomorrow as well. NCM closing in fast. Kaya pa ba to?

Tadtad sa trabaho. Ayoko na!

2007-01-19T15:33:00.000+08:00

I'm slowwwwwwly deteriorating. I don't know how to handle my time anymore. Priorities getting all tangled up. How do I accomplish a lot of things in a flash? :(

2007-01-16T18:41:00.000+08:00

Sabi ni pwet kanina, amoy paa ang lib. Nasa lib ako ngayon.

*singhot*

Fuck. Oo nga.

2007-01-06T18:37:00.000+08:00

Kinda late survey haha. Meron pa isa, but I have to meet up with my mom now :) Bye!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANTZ!!

How much have you changed in two years?

Date?

Then: January 06, 2005

Now: January 06, 2007

How old were you?

Then: 16

Now: 18

Where did you go to school?

Then: Aquinas University Science High School [which was greatly devastated by Reming .l.]

Now: Ateneo de Manila

Where did you work?

Then:

Now:

Where did you live?

Then: Bicol

Now: Katipunan, in a dorm

Where did you hang out? -haha hang out :D

Then: School kiosks! Hahaha. La mia taza.

Now: Ateneo. Starbucks. etc.

What was your hair style:

Then: Longish straight cut hair no bangs.

Now: Longish layered hair with bangs/fringes

Did you wear glasses?

Then: Yes

Now: No. Lost my glasses :(

How many tattoos did you have?

Then: 0

Now: 0

How many piercings did you have?

Then: two

Now: two

What car did you drive?

Then: boxcarcadaver hehe

Now: WALA :( Awww..

What was your worst fear?

Then: Having no college to go to, haha.

Now: Migrating

Had you smoked a cigarette?

Then: No.

Now: No.

You been arrested?

Then: No.

Now: No.

Biggest Concern?

Then: Graduating hehe.

Now: NCM. HAHAHAHA.

Your Close friend(s)?

Then: Puks! :)

Now: Juju's closest.

Had your heart broken?

Then: Sort of.

Now: No :)

Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter?

Then: Single.

Now: Single. And happy :D

2007-01-06T07:05:00.000+08:00

I DEMAND YOU TO CLICK AND ZOOM IN!!

merry christmas, happy new year! I'm so stressed and sleepy.

Bye

2006-12-11T05:48:00.000+08:00

SHET NAWALA YUNG POST KO NYETA. Pictures pa naman ni Reming. Next time na lang nga ahaha babay.

MAY PASOK BA?

2006-12-09T04:48:00.000+08:00

Zwan Commercial

Ack! Lovely cute commercial! Ahahaha :} Wala lang, ang cute lang at ang labo :D hahahaha :P

2006-12-05T22:52:00.000+08:00

Since my multiply is such a bitch, I'll upload the photos here. I hate you multiply! I hate you internet connection! Rawwwwr. I hate you too blogger for sometimes not uploading the pictures even though you said it was already uploaded. RAWR. Anyway, here are some:

2006-12-02T16:12:00.000+08:00

All I can do is imagine what might have happened to my family after hearing and reading and seeing what has happened to millions of homes and families and establishments and bridges etc in Bicol due to the typhoon. Believe me, my imagination's running as wild as a beast. I know you would too if you heard that there were flash floods. Lahar. Water above people's heads already. Houses completly submerged. Dead people floating in the river. People literally dead on the streets. Hundreds missing. Hundreds dead. Thousands homeless. Bridges gone. Transportation zero. And I know you would too if the last message you received from your mom was 2 days ago [Thursday morning]. And when all she said was that it may be her last text already since the electricity's gone and she didn't have battery anymore. Then she says God be with you.

The guilt I feel devours me whole.

I just hope they're okay. I pray everyone will be okay.

2006-12-01T04:51:00.000+08:00

I miss Papa but I'm very lazy, I'll just repost [plus some editing] haha :)

Satellite.

vianca: hahaha, w8, i read ur post, helllloooo sunshiiiine, u wake up early?
ruthiee: no!
ruthiee: i woke up 1am hehe
ruthiee: slept from 5am wednesday woke up 1am thursday
ruthiee: ayuuun
vianca: yuck you
ruthiee: ano??
vianca: oh my god, 20 hours of sleeping
vianca: hindi ba inakala ng nanay mo na patay kna?
ruthiee: HAHAHAHA
ruthiee: ANOKABAAA
ruthiee: may ofc yung nanay ko
ruthiee: hahaha
ruthiee: i wake up to turn!!
ruthiee: hahahhaa
vianca: hahaha, hindi ba sya nawirduhan, sympre pggcng nya tulog ka, den pg alis nya tulog ka prin, den pguwi nya 2log ka parin, hahah
ruthiee: hahahaha!
ruthiee: hindi, sanay na yun
ruthiee: hahaha
vianca: hahaha

Good riddance.. Is 20 hours of sleeping weird? Hahaha! I have nothing to do anyway. I just wake up, watch TV, PS, internet, eat a little, sleep a little. Hahaha. Yeahhh, bum. Pero sanay na nga talaga nanay ko :D Kasi tatay ko ganun din. Bwaha.

When my dad was still here [I mean he's still alive but when he was still in the Philippines], saturdays were sleep time. Sundays were church time then sleep time then buhbye time. Haha. My dad works in Manila and he comes home to Bicol every week. Fridays to be exact. Either by bus or by plane, doesn't matter, just as long as he's with us during Saturdays and Sundays. Then Sunday night, he'd be off to Manila again.

Basically, Papa goes home to sleep. Isn't that cute? Hehe. But most of the time he'd wake me up on Saturday afternoons to go swimming. Hurray. We pick up loads [as in loads! around 50-75 pieces] of ice cream sticks from the grocery [we leave some at home], pick up my cousins, and weee go swimswimswimmin in the ~~sea~~ pool. Yey! Papa would swim for a while then he'd go to sleep again :D When he wakes up, he'd take a quick dip while we tidied up then buhbye pool see you next week.

When we get home, he'd get three ice cream sticks from the freezer. He'd give me one; the other two were for his tummy hehe. My mom would cook chicken for dinner. Or sometimes when she gets a little retarded, she cooks Japanese [OO SOBRANG WEIRD pero talagang todo japanese pati bowls cups pati yung table dun kami sa mababang table para feel na feel na naksquat hahaha, ganun kaweird pamilya ko DATI hahaha]. I wish my mom always gets retarded >:) After our ice cream sticks, guess what we'll do. Papa will.. Sleep and I will play 'interactive games' hahahaha. Yep. Computer. Wahaw. The computer was my bestfriend. Wait. It still is, haha.

After dinner, either Papa would doze off again or he'd sit in front of the computer until the wee hours of ze morning. It all depended on the unfinished work he had blahblah. [Ahem ahem cough cough bad for my health daw ang pagpuyat o, tsktsk haha]

Then Sunday. Sunday. We go to the 11am mass, then lunch at my uncle's place. After some chitchat, we go home to sleep. Haha. Sleep until 5pm. Papa's bus leaves at 6pm. My mom would always ask Papa to check his things because he might forget something. He would say everything's okay, then we'll leave home. BUT sometimes, on our way, Papa remembers that forgot something at home. Just when we're near the bus station he suddenly remembers. HAHAHA. Then my mom would say 'O. Iyo na an ang pigtataram ko.' ['O, ayan na nga ba ang sinasabi ko.'] 'Tsktsk. Padara mo na sana.' ['Tsktsk. Padala mo na lang.'] Very good. Hahahaha. Good job.

Hmm.. I wink now. Hahahaha. Might be the genes :)

2006-11-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

FINALLY I have internet :) Hello internet. And also, finally, I will post something! I've been quite lazy to update. In fact, I have lots of posts drafted. I'm just too lazy to upload them. Maybe some time next week? :) I have lots of stories to tell and lots of thanking to do! Not to mention some ranting and raving, too hehe. I just wish I had the energy to do all those before I forget everything, tsktsk.

Sana walang pasok sa Sadurdei :(

Habirdy nunoy! :)

♥
ruthie.

2006-11-19T11:56:00.000+08:00

It was a sin. But it felt so right.

2006-10-25T12:44:00.000+08:00

WOOO!!!

I'm in Bicol. We will swim in a while. Jefroy asked for Butane. I do not know what Butane is. What is Butane.

Hrm. Oh, shooting stars andami palaging umaaligid, yehey! :)

Tapos.. I have a pet slut. I think I will name him Jujube.

Wahahahhaa. Hate NSTP.

Wala na, ayun lang ata. Haha.

BYE!

2006-10-16T02:07:00.000+08:00

ANG POST NA ITO AY TUNGKOL SA TANGING LALAKE SA BUHAY KO.

hi! sport, read about princeton from the attachments. if we pursue you will be with class 2011. look at the prospectus! i think this school is just your type. enjoy reading the registration for your class is quite close. i will check new york u also as that's another very good school. that's your ate erika's alma mater. love, papa.

Ok, so now I feel the fucking pressure. How the fuck am I going to tell him that I DO NOT WANT TO REPEAT COLLEGE. I will be with class 2011?? BUT I'M ALREADY HAPPY WITH CLASS 2009! I LOVE FUCKING ATENEO EVEN IF I HATE SCHOOL. HOW. HOW. I don't want to break his heart! ARGH IS.

Puta.

What a dilemma :(

But nevermind. I must concentrate on Math lessons first. FUCK MIGRATION.

♥
a very fucked up ruthie.

DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT tell anybody about whatever shit you read above. ANYBODY. Not even your pet rock. As far as I'm concerned, I didn't say/blog/type such things. Tralalalaaaa..

EDIT [sorry for cursing a fucking lot]
*I opened the fucked up attachments and I fucking found out that the fucking tuition fee is fucking $45,500. Go fucking do the fucking Math. Fuck. I will not go to hilary duff's fucking dreamschool in fucking cinderalla story which fucking requires my parents to fucking pay 2 fucking million fucking plus fucking pesos just for me to have a 'good' fucking education. FUCK! WHO FUCKING CARES ABOUT FUCKING EDUCATION?? WELL I DO FUCKING NOT! FUCK YOU WORLD! FUCK YOU FUCKING PRINCEFUCKINGTON! FUUUUCK YOUUUUUUU.

Ok, I deny saying that, thanks. I am a very very nice angelic girl. I cannot hurt a bear. But I can hurt you. Hihihihi. Fuck.
/EDIT

2006-10-14T18:36:00.000+08:00

Monday - Math
Tuesday - History; Eco [or was Eco Wednesday?] *both comprehenfuckingsive.
Wednesday - Spanish [or was it Tuesday, too?]
Friday - Theo

Ok, so good luck everyone. I'm swimming in History readings. Thank you God I finished English already.

Oh and someone please pleeease help me in Math @_@ I don't know how to do Log shit, huu. I know, I'm a Math genius, thank you >:(

♥
ang babaeng wala pang exam permit.

PS Nasa bahay pa rin kami ni Raisa, nagtatangkang mag-aral para sa History. Wow. At lahat kami [except kay Lou, corny] wala pang exam permit. Shit.

PPS Punyetang ECO! phew.

bow.

♥
makikickout na, soon.

2006-10-12T15:34:00.000+08:00

KAYA KO KAYANG BUMAWI?

2006-10-11T10:16:00.000+08:00

I have another Eco LT in about 2hrs. WOOO. Isang chapter pa lang naaaral ko.

HAPPY BIRDY CHA♥ THE ~~ANOREXIC WHORE~~ BITCH!
aylurfyooo, ~~anorexic~~ bitch :) Imma give you Soya Milk. Mwohohoooo! :)

2006-10-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

Wow, antagal ko na atang pinost yang video ng UAAP game1, ngayon lang lumabas. Haha, what a sloooow youtube. Woosh, oh well, it's still worth posting anyway :)

I just had my Spanish orals with Senor Prado. Two words: IT SUCKED. My partner sucked. I would be very very much happy if I atleast get a D. Hay. Muy mal..

Tomorrow, THEO FINALS. Shit, andami daw babasahin. Wala nanaman 'tong tulugan. Starbak is. Harum.

KATE, will email speech by Friday, I promise :)

Anyway, hasta luego :)

2006-10-05T14:41:00.000+08:00

2006 UAAP Finals Game 1 Ateneo vs UST

No words needed :)

2006-10-03T17:42:00.000+08:00

I had another bad day. Another one. Today was worse. I hate. I hate. I think I'm jinxed. Times like this, I would really want to take my camera out for a drive.

Arr.

I couldn't do anything, I was swelling up inside. Tears just fell while I was talking to the guy in the bank. Sorry, Mr Bank, I couldn't help it. I needed to develop photos for my Spanish album but I was broke, my ATM got captured and won't be retrieved until 1 in the afternoon but I had orals, a long quiz and the Spanish album due all at 1:30. I had no choice but to get the money my mother sent yesterday through Western Union. Good they were open but as I was about to hand my ID to Mr Bank, I realized that my ID holder was not holding my ID. Wow. WOW. I felt my throat dry and my knees quiver.

'Passport? Driver's license?'
'Err.. they're all in Bicol. How about my credit card? Laking National card? *Big smile but eyes already watering*'
'Your regform will do.'

I rushed back to the dorm feeling very disoriented. I am the unluckiest person in the world. When I got to my room, I couldn't remember anything. I was so disoriented. SOOOO DISORIENTED. Panic, panic. I sat on my bed trying to think where I put my regform. I had to let all the crap in my head out, else I will explode.

'Ok ka lang?'
'Ha? Ay oo.'
'Bakit ka umiiyak?'
'Eh kasi nawala yung ID ko, nakain pa yung ATM ko, hindi ako makakuha ng pera. Andami ko pang dues ngayon, anong oras na, wala na akong oras gumawa at mag-aral.'
'Ha??'
'Hinahanap ko ngayon regform ko pero hindi ko maalala kung san ko nilagay.'
'...'
'Shit dba.'
'...'

I found my first year regforms but not my recent regforms. Lord, clear my mind please. I look around my table the last time and I find my regform. DIO MIO! GRACIAS! I go back to the bank, I go through all the shitty processes, and after an hour and a half they approve my request. What time was it? 2pm.

I leave the story there. Make your own conclusion. What did I do next? Wow, this is a great time to make a contest. Whoever ends the story right will win a.. uh.. a something. Will still think about it, hehe.
***
Lord, man, I trust you with my life. I will take on whatever fuck you give me. Just please, give me strength. I realized while I was waiting for my request to get approved that I am weak, I felt that I could not handle living alone anymore. I wanted to go home. I wanted people to take care of me instead of me taking care of myself. I thought I could handle it, living away from my mom and dad, my whole family. But I guess I was wrong. I can't live without them. I can't live without YOU. Because in the end, I will run back to You. I will want You to just hold me close and never let go. I will want You to be with me. I want You to be with me. And I finally SAW that I have been journeying my life ALONE. Thank you for once again poking me hard and saying poke you. I poke you back now.

2006-10-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

Actually, hindi na dapat ako magpopost pa uli dito. Sa ibang blog na sana haha. Kaya tama, sa ibang blog na lang nga. Labo..

2006-10-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

It was a nice game. UST deserved the win. Congrats :)

But still.. One Big Fight!

♥ to Ateneo Blue Eagles.

Intal, Escalona, and Kramer, you did great on your last year :) Huu, grabe natamaan ako bigla ng school spirit hahaha. Lalo na nung umiyak si JC :( AWWWW SHEEEETTT. Saaad. Pero ang galing talaga. Go Ateneo! Ang galing pa rin ni Norman Black yehey!

Ayan, Soccer naman panoorin natin! WOOO! Hehe.

Vavu!

Ay PS pala. Galing rin ni Pido Jarencio. Pero hindi ko talaga maiwasang maalala si Jose kapag nakikita ko siya. Si Jose, yung comedian sa eat bulaga at yung kay Chuchay hehe. Angas :D

2006-09-30T23:33:00.000+08:00

Wow the History play is finally done! :) THANK YOU HI 18.1 BLOCK C FOR MAKING THE PLAY A WHAM BANG SHABANG EXTRAVAGANZA :D Haha. For some odd reason, I want to THANK EVERYONE yey ♥ *WARNING: thank you lang lahat mababasa mo sa next sentences :P*

Thank you Tin Nads Cha Shira Trish for being exceptionally patient with us very pasaway actors hahaha :) You make great directors, scriptwriters, and of course, bitches :P Hehe! v(--,)

Thank you Aphrodite, Athena and Apollo for being such weird and crazy gods. Yes, we mess up during practice very much. And we have difficulty arguing. But then.. We're gods, yey! :D We must be curious above all things. Ok walang connection yehey hahahaha.

Thank you whole acting crew: Kiki, Cha, Pat, Rai-sa, NC, Nads, Tin, Krispy, Nissy, Ione, mwahaggies! Ang galing ng lahat! Yey congratulations weeeeoow! :) BUT SPECIAL LOVE TO YOU HOT MIGNONS! :D HAHAHAHA! FHM! WOOOO! [yes, i will post pictures soon hahahaha]

The PROD! I love you too!! :D Thanks so much for making all the props. The box, the mountain stood up yey! The ball of fire was amazing! HAHA :D Thank youuuuuu Angel, Paola, Ina, Queenie for making all the props possible. And going to Raisa's place just to finish help with the props wiheeee kilig yikkkkeeee! :P Thank you also to Carmina and KC for making everything work during the presentation :)

Thank you Charlie, the lights were beautiful! Nagamit pa namin sa FHM photoshoot yey :)

Thank you Ione and Rai-sa for raiding Divisoria to look for materials for the costumes! Oh my, beautiful! And YOU GUYS DID ALL THE COSTUMES YEHEY! Yes, as in mano mano. WOW. And yes we had beautiful costumes hehe :P OH! And for doing such great make-ups on all the actors ♥ too [and of course isama natin si Nads because she finished my unfinished make-up hehe and Trish Squish]

ANGEL thank you soooo much for running around like mad just to get everything done! For the printer, the ball of fire, the VERY VERY fast driving, and for attempting to make a whip, hehe :D THANK YOU. Megad, wala lang. I just saw you running around and everyone was yelling for you but yey you were like superwoman! YEHEEEEY!

Thank you RAISA MURILLO PWET WIPER :D For the documentation! The venue! The Hershey! The food! The amazing lawn of your house and of course for letting us ransack your house! WOOO! And for helping me solve my costume dilemma although it failed hahahaha! :D Oh and the crammed picture taking shit! SHIT! Hahahaha! We can still add our pics sa documentation ng Playbill! WOOO! :D

Speaking of Playbill and costume! THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH CHARINA de ASIS for SEWING MY COSTUME WHOLE!! Yes, Charina did the whole thing. I mean my costume. I would have been naked without her, huhuhuhu. Senti moment. You should cry, Auntie Charina.Mwahaha :P I love you bitch! Also, thank you sooo much for bearing with me! And ISO I LOVE YOU! Apparantely, Cha and I stayed up the whole damn Friday night just to finish the playbill [which we were not able to pass due to printer problems huhu]. We started work in ISO rec room around 10pm and finished at 7am [we had rehearsals at 8 and I had to rush back to my dorm to power nap and take a bath hahahaha it was that thrilling huraaahhhh!]. I sat on a chair for 8 straight hours. STRAIGHT. No peeing. I was just there, sitting and editing pics like there was no tomorrow. Feeling ko nakarating na ako Bicol sa tagal kong nakaupo dun.

ANYHOOO.. Thank you so much Auntie for doing almost all the texts in the playbill, for being as sabog as me and for not killing me when I was mocking all the creatures, living and non-living, roaming around your dorm [I was meow-ing and scaring the cat when the sun rose, talking to my laptop, bugging and begging McDo delivery guy for food, and imitating the birds that flew. I was that fucked up, thanks.] and not killing me for singing 3 Libras over and over and over and over eventhough all I sang/said was difficult not to feel a little bit disappointed or you don't you don't you don't see me. OH and for singing Mandy Moore's song with me. 90 miles outside Chicago tralilalalala lala la laaaa. And other stupid songs that I sang. But you sang too. HAHAHAHA :P

COMMERCIAL: I realized that I am a disturbed human. Oh my..

Going back..

THANK YOU AUNTIE! ♥ I love youuu also for buying me leggings and bandeau AND the very SCARY ax HAHA :P

Ok who else.. OH! NC! Thank you for helping me clean up the mess in Sec C :) What funny treasures we found! Bossom buddies HAHAHAHAHA :D Laughtrip! :D

Thanks also to those who attempted to watch our play but wasn't able to because Sir Dhaaave closed the door already hahahaa *ahemexamplemingkayandsomeotherpersons*! Poooor :( But thank you for the effort! :D Love is still given to you :D HAHA. Shush Pallas Charina, calm your voice! :P

Aaaayy, how can I forget. The number one cam whore in the world. KARLA 'KIKI' AYCO. Because of your pictures, we were able to fill in the pages of the playbill [I promise, priceless pictures! Love it :)]. You are one scary bitch, did you know that? LANDI. HAHAHA :P I love you too, Karla! :) Let's go buy bread in Bread Talk :D HAHAHAHA.

Ok I guess I thanked everyone already. I actually want to thank more people but I really need to go. Unfortunately, I have Tai Chi Finals tomorrow at 6:30 am. I just found out a couple of hours ago! @_@ Gudlak.

Bye everyone :) Post again next time :P

OH WAIT! Our music was also great! :) I love the mignon music! :) And thank you Tin for texting me your Director's notes even if it was loooong :D

Ok bye! :) Story about my life lalala life next time hehe :P I might get kicked out of Ateneo if I don't Tai Chi tomorrow! WOOOT! :D I can just imagine it.. Ruthie Arroyo, got kicked out of Ateneo for not completing her Tai Chi course. Whoa. Ambantot. Parang game 2 ng Ateneo-UST hahaha :P BUT! HAVE FAITH LITTLE ONES! We will win!

ONE BIG FIGHT!

2006-09-22T15:04:00.000+08:00

Gusto ko nga pala mag donate ng dugo kahit takot ako sa injection! Wala lang, parang.. Something new? Pati makakatulong rin diba. AT needles. Wow. Ayan morbid nanaman :D

Nasa Matteo uli ako at balak ko matulog pagkatapos ko mag-update.

Kaya..

Tapos na ako mag-update.

Tutulog na ako.

2006-09-22T11:40:00.000+08:00

Have you heard of scar tattoos? I read it from my Lea's [my cousin], LJ. I got curious so I googled it. To my amazement, the scar tatoos looked very preeeeettttty [and painful]. I saw only one picture, I wanted more mwahaha, so I clicked another link. This time it was a gallery full of scar tattoos. It wasn't a pretty sight this time.

How dp you get scar tattoos, you ask? Simple, actually. THEY CUT YOUR SKIN DEEEEP WITH WHATEVER PATTERN YOU WANT. The outcome? A designed SCAR. Wow, pretty ingenious. Imagine ALL the pain you have to endure during and AFTER the process. I mean, OPEN WOUND slash RAW FLESH YIKES will take time to heal. WHOA. But I guess if you're into self mutilation then go on, give it a try :D Bwahaha.

Forgive my morbid entry :) Speaking of morbid..

Ginawa kong hikaw yung MALAKING stainless paperclip na ginamit ko pangseal ng M&M's bag. Yehey, morbid na ako :D Haha, actually, hindi masakit :D Nagffeelinglang ako mwoho :P

Bye, off to Eco now :)

EDIT iniistalk nga talaga ako ni Dantes. BWAHA. Sohorrry. Haha Hi Dantes :P /EDIT

2006-09-20T11:54:00.000+08:00

Got a devil's haircut in my mind.. Got a devil's haircut in my mind. Tralilalalalalalaaaaa.. Oh, hello :) I'm killing time in a warm place. I don't have anything to say, really. So if you don't want your time wasted, stop reading, thankies :)

It's almost 12, I have a class at Bel at 12:30. Eco. I hate Eco, bwaha. But my teacher turned out to be REALLY REALLY nice. Sobra. almost give away na yung grades namin. Isipin mo, papasa ako sa subject niya. PAPASA AKO. WHOA. Ni hindi ko na naisip na papasa pa ako. Nag-iisip na nga ako ng strategy ko pano ko makkwatro yung iba ko pang subjects [well, except Math, siyempre :D] para lang mabawi ko yung F sa Eco. Pero kumusta naman at naisipan niyang mag-curve. Whoooa. Salamat, Ma'am Perez! Isa kang anghel kapag hindi ako nabagsak :D Wehe :D

Type type type. Clickity clack clack clack.

Nasasawa ka ba sa mga taong puro na lang acads nasa isip, salita, at gawa? HAHA labo.. Get nyo ba? Yung tanging pag-aaral ang buhay. Hindi naman sa sobrang mali yun, wala, nakapagtataka lang na kaya nilang 'yun lang pagtuonan [anong spelling? :p] ng pansin. Parang shielded sila sa realities ng BUHAY. Parang meron silang nung sa mata ng kabayo, hehe. Naka-focus lang sa isang point. ACADS. Yaks, iniisip ko pa lang nasusuka na ako.

Hindi lang ako yung tipo ng tao na mag-eeffort ng GRABEHAN sa acads dahil PARA SAKIN, hindi dun umiikot ang buhay ko. Nag-aaral AKO para matuto. Yung concept siguro.. Kaya hindi ako marunong magmemorize bwaha. Puro lang concepts alam ko :D MWOHO. Eh kasi magagamit mo ba yung mga kung ano anong pangalan ng elepante ni Hannibal Barca [hindi ko maalala ang pangalan ng elepante ni Mr Barca] at kabayo ni Alexander [oo, naalala ko, si Beucephalus hahahaha] sa buhay mo? Pero magagamit mo sa buhay mo ang iba't ibang strategies na ginamit ng Greeks laban sa Persians. HAHA labooo. Wala, akin lang yun :)

Marahil para sakanila, hindi rin nila maisip kung pano nabubuhay at tumatagal sa Ateneo ang mga tulad kong slacker huwaha. Nag-aaral rin naman ako. Minsan. Pero ok na kasi sakin na maintindihan ko yung lesson, kung pano yung pasikot-sikot niyon blahblahblah. Basta natutunan ko yung concept [uulitin ko, hindi kasi ako marunong magmemorize] :D Ang gulo ko :) EWAN.

Bottomline is, kanya kanya lang siguro tayo ng trip. Nasasawa ako sa puro school. Pero hindi ko naman sinasabing mali yun, hindi ko rin sila pinipigilan. Gusto ko lang yan sabihin, hehe. Respeto lang. I-enjoy na lang natin lahat. Wag na tayong ma-stress sa mga lecheng hell week. Nagkakapimples lang ako ng marami, yaki wahaha.

Sabi nga ni Jason Mraz 'I won't worry my life away..'

Maraming salamat :)

2006-09-18T06:36:00.000+08:00

As usual, I crammed my final ARP :D Pero longer hours now! 5hours! Yehey! Hahahaha. Pero I think it sucks and will only get a D. I think. Or maybe a C+ wehehe. Onti kasi talaga yung discussion about the situation in the Philippines, wala ako masyadong nahanap na sources @_@ pero umabot ng 18pages ang lola mo. Hahahaha! Barbero ang lahat :D PERO pangit lang kasi NGAYON as in NGAYON ko lang nakita yung stats galing sa NSO tungkol sa topic ko. NGAYON [as in mga 5minutes ago] lang sinend ng NSO sakin. Nag-request kasi ako ng stats. Arrr.. Hatred. So sayang diba! Hammmburger.

Anyway.

BABAY! Mamaya na :P

2006-09-16T19:09:00.000+08:00

Kilala nyo ba si Tom Taus? Yung little bro ni Antoinette Taus? I think I saw him yesterday afternoon during our History class walking to somewhere. You know what's weird? He looks so different! All grown up! @_@ Wala lang, naalala ko lang kasi dati kid na kid pa sya sa cinema one :D WALA LANG.

Cla, Jano and I went to the National Museum :) I shall elaborate later, I will go Neon to booze :D Haha, vavuuu!

2006-09-15T01:08:00.000+08:00

Haha, first time I got in a physical fight. Mwohoho. As in hampasan with a litol rage. Pero kulitan lang yun, malamang. Pero grabehan, nakakatawa kasi totoo na talagang nagsasakitan :D HAHAHA. Sino kaya ang kaaway ko.. HAHA.

Nothing else is new.. Same old, same old. I have nothing to say, really. So I'll just answer questions from qbox. Wala lang, para masaya :)

BUT WAIT! I got interrupted by this psycho site. My blog is worth B$17,520.22. Kung ilan man yan, hindi ko alam. Basra tingnan mo na lang. WEIRD. May shares [as in yung stocks, ganyan ganyan] pala sa blog world! Nagulat ako. Nakita ko lang sa last 10 referers ko. HAHA. Okay, anyway, moving on.

1 ah gumagana pa pala to... akala ko hindi na. what's up?
Oo, gumagana pa naman :D Stuff is up.

2 benta yung roommate entry before! asan na ba yung dating rommates?
Graduates na :( Huuu..

3 You seem so stressed. Don't worry, you'll do fine. You won't become an out of school youth! How many units are you taking?
I actually have no idea. I think 19 or 18. Somewhere there.

4 Nakakakuha ka ba talaga ng questions? baka you're making this up lang.
I DO! Check my email if you can :D But really, i do. Bat naman ako magtatanong sa sarili ko, hello.

5 palitan mo na layout mo para ala na spam
Demanding!

6 bat hindi na kita nakikita tumambay sa acil?
Bec I'm busy with sch work :(

7 fnally! you'r going to answr qs. bat tmgil ka sumagot ng qs? and how gumawa nito?
Haha, nakakainis kasi yung mga tanong e :D Nainis ako dun sa thirdwheel. HAR. FYI hindi na ako gulong ng tricycle ngayon noh I coded it :) But you have to apply in some site first. Sorry, nakalimutan ko na, hehe.

8 condolences. where is he now?
Thanks :) Heaven, maybe :P His ashes were brought to Bicol.

9 Hi! You don't know me but i've been reading your blog na for quite some time.. Aliw lang.. I heard you were going to be a lola na, that true?
Hello :) Como te llama? I mean, what's your name? And.. Err.. YEAH!! :D

10 wer will i c u?
Look, up in the sky!

11 Tough ba talaga sa Ateneo? Gusto ko sana dyan e ^_^ I'm Ivy from bicol too.
Hindi siguro kung nag-aaral lang ako. Problem is, hindi ako nag-aaral! Haha. Sain ka sa Bicol?

Ok, so far, ayan pa lang :) Ask! Ask! :D

Take cuuuuur, papa bur!

2006-09-13T10:23:00.000+08:00

Grabe talaga 'yung roommate kong taga-Miriam, nakakabaliw. Mga 30minutes na akong andito sa kwarto, hindi pa rin siya lumalabas ng banyo. At take note, pag-dating ko dito, nasa banyo na siya. Buhay pa kaya siya? O talagang ganun siya katagal tumae? Wala naman kasi akong naririnig na wishwash ng tubig. Dapat na ba akong mag-alala? Hmm..

So natapos ko yung full ARP ko in 3.5hours. KUMUSTA NAMANG CRAMMER YAN. Yes, 11pages of blood. 5am to 8:30am. Pangit nga lang kasi late ako nakapasok sa klase dahil nagprint pa ako eklavu. And since nawala ang aking USB, hassle pa talaga. Pero grabehan talaga. Nabaliw na ako kaka cite ng sources. Yung iba pa hindi ko nagamit pero nakalagay lang sa Work Cited wahaha. E draft pa lang naman, aayusin ko pa yun.

So kumusta naman ang class standing ng lola mo sa English? Buhay pa! Yehey! High B pa ata ako! YEHEY! :D At akala ko nanaman subsob na PowH mE sa mUd, but nooo. Wala lang. Kasi hindi talaga ako nag-aalala sa grades kaya kung nag-papanic na ako, ibig sabihin wala na talaga akong pag-asang pumasa sa kung anong subject man yun. Dun lang talaga ako mag-papanic, bwahaha. Pati na lang pag-panic e crammed pa rin eh, noh? HAH!

Ayoko na mag-cram!

Pero tamad naman ako mag-ayos ng buhay. RAWR.

After 5minutes, hindi pa rin lumalabas roommate ko.

I must buy new USB. Mahal naman kasi e :( Sana maisipan ng tatay ko na bilhan uli ako :)

Oo nga pala.. Nawala bigla yung kahon na may kung anong virus. Yey! Rinepublish ko lang blog ko tapos biglang nawala. Weird. Pero may pop ups pa rin :( Feeling ko dahil sa cbox or sa counter ko dati. Yang 600+ pa lang.. Harum. Alisin ko na kaya? :)

Raisa Murillo na mahilig sa pwet, siguro ikaw yung stalker sa cbox noooohhhhh :D HAHAHAHA!

Sige tulog muna ako :)

2006-09-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

TODAY is Papa's BIRDY! :) Happy Birdy to youuuu! :)

and also,

My number one favoritest Bitch's BIRDY! :D Happy Birthday, Bitch!! >:) [I did not forget, damn you, haha! :P]
***
I am dead. ARP @_@ Huuu.. English ARP makes my life miserable. Arrr.. And since it sucks, I'm not doing it. I will but maybe later. WOOOO. I hate self for saying that. No. Must. Do. ARP. NOW. Or else. Might. Get. Kicked. Out. Of Ateneo. Must. Must. Must sleep. Noooo..

On to happier things, shall we?

I'm not failing Eco after all! YEYYYYY! Akala ko talaga wala na akong pag-asa sa Eco. As in subsob na sa putik standing ko. AS IN. But then Miss e-mailed us our class standings and good grief! I'm still alive! I was so afraid of failing pero para lang pala sa wala yung pagkatakot ko. Nyeeeeeek. Sayang. JOKLANG! HURRAY I'M NOT FAILING ECO! I love eco now! I will study Eco starting ~~tomorrow~~ Thursday :D HAHAHAHA :P

Moving, moving..

I was just searching for some songs when I accidentaly came across this Xanga that mentioned someone I know. Knowing me, I usually read EVERYTHING when I find people's blogs. Soo.. I went through her archives and got a little shocked, haha. Ganun pala buhay niya dati noong kasama siya.

Wala lang..

Nalaman ko lang ang tungkol sa mga past lives nila with a single click. 2004 to present. Nasilip ko lang naman. Pero.. so much power these blogs. Wala lang uli. Ngayon ko lang kasi naisip na kapag meron kang blog, you really are just letting people read your life. You're letting them feel some emotions you currently feel. You're letting them get to know you without solid your permission. But readers basically don't need to ask consent.. Once you posted something, that's open for everyone to read. So.. So.. Maybe I should stop blogging.

Joke :P

I don't know. One day, someone might have all the time in the world to read my archives and know part of me, know memories I have already forgotten, etceteraaa..

Wala lang talaga :)

Yikee, ****, may chicks ka pala dati ah! *** pala pangalan nya ah! Hahahaha, yikeeeeeee :P

Kita mo yan. One hour ago, hindi ko alam yan. But. Thanks to google, nalaman ko. Ampangit..

2006-09-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

Today was completely whacked.

911

Hay.. Terrible day.

I am depressed. I hate Acads :(

Eco LT was okay. First time ata akong nakasagot sa Eco. Haha.

Theo was freecut.

But despite ok na Eco test and free cut in Theo, I still hate acads :(

Don't ask.
***
Yesterday was my blog's birthday :) Happy third, blog! :) I will revamp you as soon as I find time :P

Today's 3na's Dad's birdy! Happy Birdy Daddy Fortune :P

Tomorrow's Papa's birdy! HAPPY BIRDY PAPA! I miss you so much :(

2006-09-10T02:40:00.000+08:00

I lost my Uncle Piping last Thursday, September 7. I think he was between 45-56 y/o. He had pneumonia, as mentioned in one of my posts. He was a doctor and he knew that if he just let his pneumonia get worse, it may lead to cancer. And so it did. Water got in his lungs making it hard for him to breathe. I think he tried to get therapy just to lessen the pain he was feeling but it was too late already.

I learned about his condition just a few days ago. Papa sent me Uncle Piping's pictures and he lost so much weight. The last time I saw him I was still in high school. Wait! I think gradeschool! Papa was with us! WHOA. He invited us for lunch in his house [in Bicol]. He cooked for us, aww. We had this weird crab soup and other stuff I don't remember. But I liked the weird crab soup. When I asked him how he made the soup, he said he just boiled his old-never-washed-ever socks and put a little salt and pepper. I could imagine him dipping his socks in my soup, haha. Before we went home, he gave us Nimh Trees to plant in our garden [more of a mini forest bwaha]. And that was it. I never saw him for Christmas. He never went to my birthday dinners anymore. He just suddenly disappeared.

I feel bad that I never got to talk to him again :( I love Uncle Piping. We always had bagels when we were at his home in the states. And I loved their refrigerator. It was the first ref that I saw na may diretsong kunan ng tubig and ice, hehehe :) I was just a kid then, I was completely amazed.

Besides the bagels, I can never ever forget SaniWasher, Inc and AquaKing. It was this strange business ideas of his. SaniWasher was a sponge with a long handle [plus you put water plus a little soap IN the handle and it directly soaps the sponge nyaha] contraption. The point? It's to be able to reach those 'hard to reach places' when washing dishes. Hehe. He produced so much SaniWasher goods, they were all piled in our storage room in our old house. Brown envelopes with SaniWasher prints, jugs [yes, even jugs and gallons!], SaniWasher plastic bags [they weren't just ordinary plastic bags, they were sturdy and thick and.. uh.. basta maganda! hehehe] which looked very cute since they were yellow, and of course the SaniWashers itself. I don't really know what happened to that business but I had my turn demonstrating how to use the Washer. I was a stupid kid [I was about 6 or 7]. I always wanted involvement in any business my family was in hahahaha.

AquaKing naman. AquaKing was the first water station in Legazpi. I think Papa and Uncle Piping got paranoid about E. Colli so they tried venturing in this 'purifying water' business. Because before AquaKing, we [Papa, mama, my aunt and I] would drive for 30minutes just to get water in Malilipot [that's where I live now :D]. There was this silly rumor that the water in Legazpi [that's where I grew up] is contaminated with some bacteria. Syempre ayan, paranoid my erpats. So I guess that's why they opened a water station :D

Silly :)

He got cremated today [Sept 9]. Sadly, I missed the mass for him. Hindi ko alam kung nasan ang Sta Ana.

I will miss Uncle Piping :) Wait. Uncle Joe pala dapat :D I have no idea where he got 'Joe' but one day Papa just told me to call him Uncle Joe instead. Haha. I will miss him but wherever he is now, I know he's happy :) It's good he's not suffering anymore. Thank you, Uncle Piping, for sharing a part of your life to me :)

2006-09-09T11:51:00.000+08:00

My friend e-mailed this test to me, HAHAHA, it made me laugh :D Sharing! Yey :P Hehe.

Are You a Sex Goddess?

A brilliant bolt of lightning descends! SHAZAAM! The oracle has spoken!

The smoke clears to reveal that inside you is a divine being,

DIANA, the Goddess of the Virgin Wild.

You are extremely desirable, but untouchable. As the deity of chastity and virginity, you live by your values. Your sexual desires simmer beneath a firm moral resolve. But you are far from a prude! The natural sensuality that you exude just makes you all the more desirable to your suitors. They know that your bedroom is a shrine, and you won't share it with just anyone. Wherever your journey takes you, you leave a trail of heartbroken men behind. You probably take sex very seriously, and share it only with someone that you love. You truly enjoy the romance of courtship, but you stick to the ideals you've set for yourself. Any guy who doesn't respect your boundaries is ancient history. You truly understand the meaning of love and will not settle for anything less than perfection. For the lucky guy who finds his way to your heart, suddenly the light comes shining down from the heavens. Behold, the skies proclaim, here lies a goddess!
***
WOOO! I'm a goddess! HAHAHAHA. Wholesome poWh mE :P HAHAHAHA :P

Moving on :)

Recollection was fruitful for me. I dunno. A bit, hehe. I got to thank God for all the significant events, places and people I've encountered. It was just.. nice. Thanks again, God :) I love my life. Except for life with Eco part. HAHA Joking :) I'll eventually learn to like Eco, nyahaha.

After the recollection, I watched Satirika with Raisa, Cha and Bern. What a nice play. But of course nothing will ever beat Ang Nilalang ni Victor Frankenstein :) Oh and I saw Bea and Kuya Nanan! Yey! They watched Satirika as well, hurrah!

Now I'm back here in the dorm, pretending to study for our Eco long test on Monday. Hassle. I think I will fail again :( I can't! MUST ACE ECO LT2! *_* My acad life is a mess. I don't like.
***
Lately, I've been missing a lot of people. And it seems that I have lost contact with a lot of friends, too. I haven't been able to spend time with Cla, Kiki and Pao. Not to mention ACIL. I've missed so much FS and special events already. I'm always on the run, I don't like. Either I'm going to study [of course more of slacking off hehe] or I'm just too tired to hang out. Arrr.. What a stressful month this is. I don't like.

All I'm trying to say is.. Err.. Sorry, everyone. If I always seem too busy :( You may think that I've changed, whatever whatever chuva eklat. Nooo.. I'm still goofy, hehe. It's just that our schedules are whacked :( Plus. I don't know. We just don't hang out in the same places anymore. No more soccerfield rawwwr. Kiki goes to SanJo with people, Cla probably needs time with ahem hehehe, Pao is lost hahaha! Joklang, Pao :P Wala lang. Nawala na sa itinerary ng lahat ng tao ang soccerfield. Isn't that sad? When it's not raining and I get to pass by the soccerfield, I sometimes sit there and just.. sit, hehe. When I'm emo, I'd wish that someone I know would pass by and sit with me. And just talk about stuff that does not make sense :) But I haven't done that since.. uh.. probably 2months ago. Saaaad..

It would be much hearts ♥♥♥♥ to just do what we do before :)
***
Yes, I have COMPLETELY reconciled with someone I tried running away from. I love it :) No more awkward hello's, texts, and silent moments. Yey! After months of reading minds and just theorizing, we're finally friends again. YEY! :) Happy I am!

Even though we sort of had.. a.. uh.. 'gap' at some point of our existence [labo!], we 'magically' patched things up without really exerting effort, hahahaha. I guess nature took its course. HAHAHAHAHA. Ang corny. It's strange, thank you :)

He's just one of the few persons I'm not willing to let go of. Ever. No matter what happens. Kahit na may anak na pala siya at tinago nya ito sa buong mundo. HAHAHAHA.

Happy to be friends [real friends] with you again, slut :)
***
CHABUANGandGAGA, I don't know why but I just want to say that I love you. Only a few people know that I have a weird habit of just hugging people [yes, even strangers] and posts [yes, even posts. malamig e. wahahaha]. Oo, talagang bigla akong nagkaka-urge na mangyakap, hehe :P YES IT IS WEIRD. But anyway. During recollection, after you showed us your beautiful sun, I wanted to hug you. No, not lesbo moves, bitch hehehehe :P I just wanted to! But of course I had to repress my hugging urges bec that would just be weird, hahaha! I think what you said just moved me in some way. Hehe. Maybe I can relate to what you said or something. I don't really know. I love you, anorexic whore :)
***
That conclude my post for today :) Take care, bitches! :P

2006-09-07T18:06:00.000+08:00

Damumu. My blog has millions of pop-ups. Plus do you see that little box in this entry? DO NOT EVER DOUBLE CLICK slash CLICK THAT BOX. Wag, basta wag, pramis. I think it's a vorus or some stupid spyware. Wonder where I got that. Hay. Now how do I disinfect my blog, hmmm :)

I decided to re-open my qbox, haha. Pero hindi ko na sasagutin yung mga dating questions, out dated na e :P New questions will be answered starting today. Yey! :)

Ok, bye!

2006-09-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

Lost my brain somewhere.. Therefore I asnwer weird survey.

1. Time started: 12:50am
2. Full Name: Maria Ruth Brizuela Arroyo
3. Single or Taken: Single
4. Sex: F
5. Birthday: November 18, 1988
6. Siblings: Most of the time i'm an only :)
7. Shoe size: 6 - 7
8. Height: I am not sure. 5'4" before but I feel that I have gotten short @_@
9. What are you wearing right now? Mickey moose jimjams.
10. Where do you live: Vivo en Dormitoryana pero soy de Bicol. [I live in Dormitoryana but I am from Bicol :D]
11. Righty or lefty: Ambidextrous
12. Can you make a dollar in change right now: That is such a corny question.
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1. Who is your closest friend: I have no idea :)
2. Do you have a BF or GF?: No, dear.
3. Did you send this to your crush?: What crush.
4. Best place to go for a date?: Date my ass :)
5. Do you like anyone?: Yes.
6. Do they like you?: They? :) Whoa, what boys do I have :P
7. Who is it?: I'd be so corny not to answer this! :( CORNY AKO. HAHAHA. Sohor :D

Favorite kind of

1. Pants: Bermuda shorts :D
2. Number: 13
3. Animal: Too many! Kinkajou. HAHAHA.
4. Drink: Water. Apple juice. Red iced tea. Strawberry JUICE. Even c2 apple haha. Oh and Vodka >:) HAHAHAHA.
5. Sport: Swim it is!
6. Month: December and other lazy months.
7. Breakfast: Egg McMuffin! :D I love breakfast, rawr.
8. Favorite cartoon: Spongebob Squarepants! Patrick♥

Have you ever

1. Bathed with someone? Yes. Yung sa mga shower rooms sa mga resorts :)
2. Smoked: No, not even a puff.
3. Bungee jumped: No. It has yet to come. Ayiyiyyiyiiii!
4. Made yourself throw-up: no but I tried one time, such a bad hangover. Didn't throw up, haha :)
5. Gone skinny dipping: No.
6. Eaten a hot-dog: DUH yes.
7. Put your tongue on a frozen pole: No. Pero sa freezer! ATA! I THINK! If my memory serves me right, hahaha! Yes, I was a stupid kid :D
8. Liked someone so much it made you cry: Noooo.
9. Broken a bone: No.
10. Played truth or dare: Yes.
11. Been in a physical fight: No.
12. Been in a police car: No.
13. Been on a plane: Yes.
14. Come close to dying: No, I think.
15. Been in a sauna: Yes.
16. Swam in the ocean: Yes. A very open ocean. HAHA labo.
17. Fallen asleep in school: GUILTY.
18. Ran away: No. Corny ko :(
19. Broken someone's heart: I don't know :D
20. Cried when someone died: Yes.
21. Cried in school: Yes.
22. Fell off your chair: My bed, yes.
23. Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call you: No.
24. Saved AIM conversations: Yes.
25. Saved e-mails: I don't delete, too lazy.
26. Fallen for one of your best friends: No.
27. Made out with JUST a friend: No.
28. Used someone: USER. No.
29. Been cheated on: No.

What is

1. Your good luck charm: Don't have one. Is that why I'm unlucky?
2. Best song you ever heard: What a hard question! I pass.
3. Your room like? A mess.
4. Beside you: Desks with lot of stuff on it.
5. Last thing u ate: M&M's. The gigantic ones.
6. The kind of shampoo you use: H&S

1. Believe in love at first sight: No.
2. Like your life for the most part: Ni fu, ni fa. [So, so]
3. Like school: One big NO to that question.
4. High school: No.
5. Who was the last person that called you: Kat, my english blockmate.
6. Who was the last person you slow danced with: I don't dance period.
7. Who makes you laugh the most: In Bicol, andami! Pero Portia Jantzen Yas talaga benta forever :D Here, maybe Sir Lozada. JOKLANG! Hahaha! Probably Joey.
8. Who makes you smile: Don't know. Do I smile? :D
9. Do you like filling these out: No
10. Do you wear contacts or glasses: I LOST MY GLASSES! :'(
11. Do you like yourself: Sometimes.
12. Do you get along with your family: Why not?

Last person

1. You yelled at: Joey, hahahaha.
2. Who broke your heart: Nobozzzzzy :P
3. Who is your loudest friend: Myself, maybe :P

Are you

1. Obsessive: No.
2. Compulsive: Sometimes! Live to defy! :D
3. Anorexic: CHA! :D HAAHAHAH :P Kidding!

Final Questions

1. How many people are you sending this to: Zero.
2. What are you listening to right now: Up Dharma Down's CD
3. What did you do yesterday: Finally attended TaiChi, had Math class then Spanish class. Then went home, I think. Then slept. And crammed ass.
4. Hated someone in your family: No.
5. Gotten any awards: Yes. For my sick photos, thanks.
6. What car do you wish to have: Mini Coop ♥
7. Where do you want to get married: Beach :D
8. Good driver: Yes :D HAHAHA
9. Good Singer: NO.
10. Have a lava lamp: No. Aww.
11. How many remote controls are in your house: Just one here in the dorm :( Aww.
13. What do you dream about: Weird because before I don't dream, haha. Or usually I can't remember them. But lately, I've been dreaming scary pupu :(
14. Last time you showered: This morning.
15. Scary or happy movies: HAPPY.
Wer na u 16?
17. Rootbeer or Dr. Pepper: Rootbeer
18. Skiing or Boarding: Skim boarding! :)
19. Summer or winter: Summer, maybe.
20. Silver or Gold? Silver.
21. Diamond or pearl? Pearls.
23. Sprite or 7-Up: What's the difference?
24. Orange juice or apple juice: Apple♥
25. Cats or dogs: Dogs :)
26. Coffee or Tea: Coffee
27. Phone or in person: In person.
28. Are you Oldest, middle, youngest: Only. But sometimes youngest :P
29. Indoor or outdoor: Either.
30. Time ended: 1:35am --Slow poke I am.

Okay I will look for another one! I am so. Uh. Brain damaged :P

2006-09-05T04:50:00.000+08:00

Feeling ko talaga mamamatay na ako *_* As in magiging out of school youth na ako. Kapag nakick out ako sa Ateneo.. Hindi na ako magaaral! HAHAHA. Hindi.. Feeling ko rin talaga may purpose kapag nakick out ako. Isa lang ibig sabihin nun. Sasama na ako sa nanay ko dahil mawawalan na siyempre ako ng buhay dito. Kaya ang solusyon dyan e wag magpakick out dibaaaaa? :D

Ewan, wala lang talaga na akong gana mag-aral. BAKIIIIT. Ambilis ng panahon. Ambilis magumaga! Ni hindi pa ako nakakapag nap e umaga na! Tulad ngayon. Naginternet lang ako, hindi ko na natapos yung draft ko. Leche. Balak ko pa naman sanang i-pass ngayong umaga dahil sobrang late na. LINTEK. Pano pa.. Kaya diba, mamamatay na ako *_*

On other news.. Ewan, wala akong good news! Puro masama. Yung kapatid ng Tatay ko [bale Uncle ko], medyo nasa malalang kalagayan. Ata. Hindi ko actually alam, sabi lang ng nanay ko may pulmonya daw tapos lumala na. Tapos hindi na ata makapagsalita, hindi pwede matulog ng nakahiga. Nasa wheelchair lang. Tama, malala na nga. Ewan.. Nung naisip ko lang na.. EWAN AYOKO PALA ISIPIN :D Hahaha. Basta. Sana umayos pa sya.. Arrr..

Everyone take care of your health :)

I'm a bit sleepy. Bye.

2006-09-04T19:08:00.000+08:00

I'm still cramming my English draft. As I have predicted, I wasn't able to finish it. Haha. Now I shall make a spanish script for tomorrow's spanish orals. Then I will email it to Martin, my partner. Yey :P

Anyway.

Weird weather today. I was in Mateo Ricci, desperately cramming my draft. I looked left, outside was the soccer field and a glorius sunny day complete with fluffy white clouds and a clear blue sky. I looked right, SEC building, and a thick VERY VERY grey sky. Whoa. Cool. It was like I was in the middle of two worlds. I was in a limbo. COOOOOOL. I looked at the studying strangers around me. Nobody noticed except me. They were much too glued on their readings, they missed a marvelous intervention of two weathers. HAHAHA. Marvelous. Or maybe it's just me.

Well it really was amazing. I kept looking outside from left to right in such awe. I think the guy beside me thought I was abnormal or had a bad case of epilepsy haha.
BUT! Weird weird weather. I love it :)

Isn't that ironic? Don't you think? :P
***

BREAKING NEWS: Steve Irwin "Crocodile Hunter" died today :( He got stung by a Stingray in the Great Barrier Reef :( He was part of my childhood! I love his show! Huu. I learned so many things about animals from of him :( This is just so sad :( Aww.. I will forever remember him

2006-09-04T00:44:00.000+08:00

Nag-ccram nanaman ako for English. Oh my God. Shit. Ang tanga ko pa, iniwan ko sa kwarto yung takteng outline ko. Pano pa ako nito gagawa ng paper. Bukas defense/debate namin sa English. Good luck, ang sabog na naming lahat, haha. Grabe, hassle talaga ang subject na 'to. Pero salamat naman at mabait yung teacher. Ewan, nababaitan ako. Yung iba nababanuan. Pero talagang mabait sya para sakin. Mataas binibigay saking grade kahit late ako magsubmit, hahaha. Finally, I feel appreciated, hehe. Ewan ko lang pero since binibigyan nya ako ng mataas na grade, parang kaya ko naman pala e, haha :) Yey, teacher, thank you :D HAHAHA.

Labo.

Ewan.

Feel good :) for that moment. Ngayon, hindi na feel good, hahaha :D

MUST HAVE VACATION! Come on holidays! Come on DENGUE! Hit me! >:) HAHAHAHA. Must hang out in places full of stagnant waterlets. HAHAHAHA.

Dengue = No school. Plus I will lose weight hahaha. AND I can die! WHAT FUN! :D

BITE ME.

2006-09-01T09:47:00.000+08:00

9:40am. Friday.

Therefore, I panic.

Why?

Megad, History midterms in less than 4hours. I do not know any Julius Caesar. If I pass History midterms i swear I'm not going to cut Eco, and History anymore . HAHAHAHA. Oh and PE! WOOO. I better pass! I better pass! It's for my future! :D Hahaha.

Oh and we have Eco quiz, too. Today, too. 12:30. RAWR. HATRED FOR ECO! ANGST! ANGST!
Must go. Must not waste time! Must study and pass History midterms! No more time.

But then of course, I still have time to blog. Isn't that ironic. Don't you think? A little too ironic.

It's like rain on your wedding day.

HAHAHAHA Sabog I am thanks! :P

Good luck, Block! :)

2006-08-25T01:13:00.000+08:00

Let me tell you a story.

One day, in the dorm.

'Ang init no?' says I.

'..' says them.

'Ok lang bang i-number 3 ko yung fan?' says I.

'..' says them.

'Ok, so maybe their tongues got abducted by aliens' thinks I.

'Lintek may pasok na talaga sa Monday! Arg.' says I.

'Ha?' says she.

'Wala, mainit.' says I.

'Ah.' says she.

'..' says the other she.

'Fuck.' thinks I.

A typical conversation between me and my roommates.

Bow.

***
Kumusta naman yun DIBAAAA. Aymegad. This is why I don't know how to interact anymore. This is also why I don't want to go back here anymore. Papanisan ng laway. Wala talagang nagsasalita samin. VERY RARE na yung marinig ko yung boses nila. At sasabihin pa nila 'ha?' 'thank you' 'wala na pala tubig' 'gamit ka net?' 'ay, pwede pacheck ng saksak?' Pwede saksakin nyo na lang ako? Huhuuu, bakit naman hindi kayo nagsasalita? One big huhu to both of you. Pramis talaga, ang weiiiiirrrrrd. Ilang buwan na kaming magkakasama pero hindi pa rin kami naguusap talaga as in usap. WHUT. Sinusubukan ko talaga magreach out, baka kasi nahihiya lang sila sakin. BUT NOOOO. Naiisnab lang ako :( It's soo.. SAD. Hindi ko alam kung magkakagalit kami sa isa't isaw o ano kaya hindi kami naguusap e. ANG WEIRD.

'Gutom na ako.'

'..'

'Kumain na kayo?'

'..'

*the other one shows me her noodles*

'Ikaw, gusto mo mag-order?'

'..'

putakte bingi ba 'to??

*tatapikin* 'Order ako Happy Homes, gusto mo?'

'Busog pa ako e'

'Ah, ok. Labas muna ako.'

'Sige.'

Yehes. Sige ha. Kilala nyo ba ako? Ako nga pala si Lorna, aka Catwoman. Anong oras na? A sige alis na ako ha, magbibilang pa ako ng kamote.

SAVE ME.

2006-08-22T18:36:00.000+08:00

Wow, long time, huuuuh. Hahaha. Anyway. What losers you are, all of yoooou. HAHAHA. Hindi nyo inubos yung mga kanta na pinapahulaan ko. Hmp.

I just got home from Azta. Yep, I cut my hair short. Short. Yes, short. I have short bangs. Again. Actually, di ko pa talaga tinitingnan, hahaha. Hinahawakan ko lang. Labo..

I'll just make this fast. Wala pa akong oras para magkwento kaya magrereklamo na lang ako hahahaha.

Hell wiwi nanaman >:( Kickout weeks. Wow. Here's my schedule, hurrah:

Tuesday [Today] - ~~Math LT~~
Wednesday - ~~Eco Quiz, En interview deadline~~
Thursday - Spanish report [my report got cancelled bec I didn't wake up on time haha so I missed Spanish class wahahaha] --hindi pa rin natuloy
Friday - Theo report, En debate dry run or something like that.
Saturday - YEHEY HAPPY HELL [week haha] YEHEY GIG! GIG!
Sunday - Baka mapunta nanaman ako sa isang lugar na hindi ko alam kung asang lupalop ng mundo [ie Caloocan]
Monday - Math fucking Midterms, English 8page [or is it 5page?] draft due, History make-up thing [time's same as my math midterms. kumusta namaaaan.] *Yes, we have classes today :( ARG.
Tuesday - Tentative Spanish LT
Wednesday - ~~HISTORY MIDTERMS OMEGAD!~~ SO AM I FREE FOR TODAY?? *_*
Thursday - Still tentative Spanish LT
Friday - ~~end of suffering.~~ HISTORY MIDTERMS OMEGAAAD! [sabi na nga ba, akala ko lang na end of suffering na! ARG!]

Oh how I love studying.. Oh joy. NYEK HINDI KAYA.

Now I ~~pretend to~~ work :)

EDIT I fucking lost my GLASSES T_T and my USB. Last Friday. And I've been having nightmares. Huhu. Yes, I have dreams now! Este nightmares pala. RAWR. How unfortunate can I get? :( /EDIT

2006-08-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

Step 1: Put your MP3 player or whatever music player you have on random.
Step 2: Post a line from the first 40 songs that play,no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song and artist the lines come from.
Step 4: Strike out the songs when someone guesses correctly.
Step 5: No cheating.

~~1. Maybe we were born to kiss another, maybe we were born to run forever.~~

~~2. Yeah, look at the stars when we're together.~~

~~3. Full moon illuminates my room, and sends my mind aflight.~~

~~4. So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me.~~

5. This ringing in my head is this a cure is or is this a disease.

~~6. I think I grew a gray watching you procrastinate.~~

~~7. I am writing graffitti on your body I am drawing the story of how hard we tried.~~

8. But what if I'm a mermaid in these jeans of yours with her name still on it.

~~9. Come on baby, come on over, let me be the one to hold you.~~

~~10. Bago maniwala, mag-isip isip ka muna.~~

~~11. Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter.~~

~~12. All entertainers come original.~~

13. Kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation.

14. Awaken this sleeping heart of mine.

~~15. 12 pm and my dusty telephone rings.~~

16. Take my heart and please don't break it.

~~17. Down the waterfall, wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me.~~

~~18. You know you're stunning, absolutely stunning and I'm running always running.~~

19. Hungry for a strangers touch, true love disappears.

20. You'll be laughing so loud that the house would shake with sound.

21. And my worst pains are words I cannot say.

22. You blow a fuse, zing boom, the devil cuts loose, zing boom.

~~23. Baby's got blue skies overhead.~~

24. I'll take advantage while you hang me out to dry.

~~25. I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking.~~

~~26. Hey you, big star, tell me, when it's over~~

~~27. Hayaan na muna natin ang mundong ito.~~

~~28. Every star that I see is brighter than the last.~~

29. And as the summers ending the cold air rush your hard heart away.

30. There's no one else to protect you.

~~31. Are you as hungry as I?~~

~~32. Wa-wa-wa wakari masen.~~

33. We love to dream in black in white.

34. Such uncontrollable caressing kills.

~~35. And the dirty hippopotamus who wallowed in the mud and chewed his spicy hippo-plankton food.~~

36. You are the Queen in the Middle of the Night.

37. Exoskeletal junction at the railroad delayed

~~38. I'll do anything for you, kill anyone for you.~~

39. Conquer and devour.

40. You're my mystery, one mystery.

Sa wakas, natapos din. Andami naman kasi! Haha. Puro pa ata Incubus tumugtog. Bat kaya walang na-play na The Strokes at Head Automatica. At iba pa.. Hmm..

Oha, ayan, hindi talaga ako nakatagal, naginternek pa rin ako @_@ Sige na, aral na ako! Hahaha. Sagutan nyo yan ha. Ha. Ha.

Night everyone :)

EDIT I changed the date para ito yung nasa top :) /EDIT

2006-08-12T06:18:00.000+08:00

I feel sad again. It's my fault, actually, because I searched for M's email and read it again. I don't know why I did that.. Siguro masukista na ako, gusto ko uli maramdaman yung sakit na naramdaman ko dati, haha.

Hay.. Almost one year na, bakit ba hindi pa rin ako maka move-on. I still feel awkward when I'm with them both, hindi ko alam kung pano ako mag-aact. Bigla nga akong nagka-urge na magtanong kung kumusta na sila. Ewan ko.. Hindi lang ako makampante.

Leche.

Patience. At wag na muna yun isipin.

Anyway, I'm really sleepy. I made a 5page email to my cousin. Arial, single spaced. Ganun karami yung sinabi ko. Punong puno. I made that from 1:30am to around 4am. Sana yung oras na yun ginawa ko na lang yung paper ko na late na. Shit, what a loser.

Hay gusto ko uminom mamayang gabi. Kasi bat pa cancelled ang inuman ngayon, I was really looking forward to it. Hay..

I HATE YOU WORLD!!

Nyt.

2006-08-09T02:01:00.000+08:00

Bakit kaya napaka-bango ng paper bag ng McDo. Amoy marshmellows. Ansarap.

DISCLAIMER: Ang susunod na mga salita ay dala ng aking period. Wag sana akong i-judge dahil lang nasabi ko ang mga susunod. Hindi ang blog ang basehan ng aking pagkatao. Ito ang masama sa pag-bblog e. Dehumanization hehe. Respeto lang. Iba't ibang pananaw. Kausapin ako kung may problema. Ang matamaan bisexual. Este wag magagalit.

Nasasakal na ako ng/ni/sa/kay **** [Ayoko sana i-censor kaso hindi ko ma-eexplain ng maigi kaya censor ko muna haha]. Ewan, talo pa yung ID men na umaaligid sa Ateneo kung makacheckpoint. Infact, tinalo pa yung PE prof ko na pinapalusot na yung iba kong cuts dahil maulan o kaya dahil tinatamad ako pumasok. Nakakasakal lang na ipilit sayo ang isang event, pagkain, tao, whatever, bagay na ayaw mo naman gawin, o ayaw mong puntahan, o ayaw mo lang dahil sa tingin mo e hindi yun makakatulong saiyo.

Problema kasi sa mga tao/nanay/groupmates/tatay/aso/halimaw/mamaw na ito, masyadong sarado utak nila/shet/niya/mo para makita na mayroong iba't ibang klaseng paglilingkod. Hindi lamang iisa ang paraan pagpapakita ng passion sa isang bagay. Hindi lamang iisa ang paraan ng pagaalay ng sarili kay Kristo. Halimbawa. Hindi naman ibig sabihin na wala na kwenta ang ginagawa mo dahil hindi mo kina-career ang trabaho. Ang pagiging sobrang [take note of the word sobra] ma-effort na parang katapusan na ng mundo kung magtrabaho ang hindi mo maaasahan sakin. Nagtatrabaho ako, siyempre. Sa katunayan, gusto ko ang mga bagay na *zikrit hahahaha* kaya walang problema sakin. I work when I'm given a job, and even if I don't like doing it susubukan ko pa rin. I work hard when I like what I'm doing. I work harder when I want it. Kung gusto mo edi gagawan ng paraan. Lumalayo na ako sa punto ko.

Weird lang na i-apply mo/ninyo/nila yung definiton mo/ninyo/nila ng commitment sa definition ko nito. Compromise, oo. Kailangan kong magsakripisyo para sa kung ano mang eklat dahil nag-commit ako na gawin ko 'to ganyan ganyan eklat eklat. Wala na dapat pero pero. E hindi e. Katulad rin lang yan sa kahinaan na nakikita ko *zikrit zikrit mahabang zikrit*. At kayang kaya ko ibato ang lahat ng iyon pabalik sayo/sainyo/sakanya.

Nakakapanghina na kung kailan akala ko e mali nga talaga ang perception ko sa mga *zikrit uli* e dun naman babanat ang isang kasuputang pinakasusupot na sa lahat ng supot. Nakakasakal, pare. At dahil dun, nawawalan ako ng gana MAGLINGKOD. Nawawala ang essence ng paglingkod sa mga ginagawa nila/niya/mo.

Hay sayang..

Ang supot lang talaga.

O sadya bang rebelde ako kaya ako nasusuputan.

Nagsisisi tuloy akong nagpapadala pa rin ako sa agos ng.. uh.. pag-conform, kung ano man ang tagalog nyan, haha.

Paalam.

2006-08-07T01:52:00.000+08:00

Hindi ko maalala kung san ko nilagay yung pangkabit ng Digicam at laptop. Waw, hindi ko talaga maalala. San kayaa.. Tinatamad pa akong maghanap, pano ko pa mattransfer pictures ng debut ni Trish? Hindi rin gumagana Bluetooth ko!! RAR! Hindi ko rin tuloy ma-tranfer yung Faspitch videos and debut pictures. Aww meyn. Anyway, tama na ang pag-dada. Magkakaperiod nanaman ata ako, may pimples nanaman ako e! Leche nagka-period pa lang ako a!! Shet, ang hirap naman ng period. Fuck.

Anyway sige game kwento!

What a looong Saturday ride.
NSTP - area got cancelled bec of Consti rain. Hah, kaya nag-patintero kami sa Faura, bwahahaha! Ansaya naman, natapik ko si Jon :) Wohoo! Masaya pala magpatintero. Dati kasi, nung gradeschool ako, sobrang bano ko magpatintero! AS in sobrang bano, ni hindi ako maka-dakip ng tao o kaya maka-alis sa level 1 hehe. Ganun ka-bano, pramis. Or baka dahil sobrang laki lang talaga nung hall tapos ang ikli ng limbs ko hehe. Ewan basta masaya makadakip hehehe >:) Aftert, sumama ako kay Cla at Jano papuntang izzwud para bumili ng regalo para kay Trish :)

6pm Xavier - Nagmadali akong bumalik ng school kasi sabi ni Noy ihaharap [shet nakakatakot] nya daw ako sa Tatay nya hahaha. Pero hindi nangyari, di ko alam kung bakit, hehe. Pagdating ko ng Xavier, andun na ang WAR na sasakyan ni Doy, haha. Mga 6:20 yun. Shet eto na ang simula ng pagkakulong sa kotse. Nagantay kami [Noy Doy Kiki] kay Bern for like forever. Antagal dumating, hahaha. Nag-MaraClara scene na si Noy at Doy, na-Lss na ako sa I need some Milo today na paulit-ulit na kinakanta ni Doy hehe, na-witness na namin ni Kiki ang ka-harutan ni Doy at Noy hahahaha, at muntik pa kaming mamatay ni Kiki dahil sa biglaang pag-drive ni Noy wahaha. Shit, hindi ko na alam kung pano ko lahat ikkwento, sa kotse pa lang yan ni Doy ha. At wala pa si Bern, hahaha.

Kkwento ko na lang yung Mara-Clara scene! Kanta kasi ng kanta si Doy ng 'I need some Milo today, Milo everyday." tapos naiinis na si Noy haha.
"Doy, baba."
"Hindi na, hindi na"
"Baba."
"Alam ko na 'to e.. Parang ito yung sa MaraClara"
*Bumaba naman si Doy hahaha. Umaambon pa naman, poor.
Lipat si Noy sa driver's seat. Nilagay sa Drive, apak sa accelerator, liko. Shet Noy. Sabi ko na lang "Hindi, may tiwala ako kay Noy." para lang lumakas loob naming lahat hahaha! Takte nung palabas na kami ng Xavier Road [waw nagimbento hehe] waha nag-panic si Noy, may kotseng pasalubong wahahaha. Shet nawala bigla yung tiwala ko sakanya, eto na ang katapusan namin. Pero nakalusot naman kami, haha, Nakabalik kaming Xavier, wala [pang] gasgas kotse ni Doy, Wohoo :) Ayan. Tapos sabi na lang ni Noy "Huu, bati na tayo Doy.. Ayoko na, huu.." Bwahaha, weird.

After 10years dumating na si Bern. Waw bagong paligo, parang nung nagtext siya na 'Traffic sa UP' e kapapasok nya pa lang ng banyo kaya antagal niya. Haha, pero ayun, nakaalis na rin kami sa wakas. Punta na kila Joey. Game. Ang sexy namin, kasya kaming apat sa likod ng WAR ni Doy. Anlaki ng pwet ko, take note, hehe :D Bullshet traffic pa nga pala. Kaya antagal naming sardinas.

Katipunan - Marikina - Antipolo. Antagal talaga naming nagbbiyahe. Parang nakarating na kaming Bicol. Antipolo lang e. Siomai.

Shortcut na. Iniwan namin si Bern at Joey sa Pizza Hut para sunduin si Camilla, nag-BK drive thru kami[noydoykikime] dahil gutom na kami, nagpunta kami nila Doy kila Badillo para mag-convoy, dinaanan uli si Bern Camilla at Joey, samin uli masikip. Naubusan na ng dugo limbs namin.

After another 10years, nakarating na kami kila Trish. Shet. At anong oras na? 9.30 in the evening. Anong oras kami andun sa school? Around 6pm. Ni hindi bumaba sa kotse ni Doy. Kumusta naman yan, hahahaha.

Kain. Pagkain. Booze. Trish na hot at hyper. At In2days na sumasablay! Hahahaha, nakakatuwang mga bata, bastahan lang ang banat. Parang andami nyong sablay, my dear sluts.. Hahaha. Ok lang, bawi naman sa ka-slut-an nyo :) Wooo, dami nyong fans a! Hahaha, kayo lang yung bandang andaming pumipicture wahaha, sohoreeeeh groupies! :D

Ay oo pala!! Kasama namin si Kebin! Hahaha, ang hyper nung gago, hehe.

Ayan. 18shots nga pala ako, Bailey's♥.

Tapos umuwi na ang aking mga kaibigan, naiwan kami ni Camilla, Kamyl at Joey. Wala kaming paraan ng pag-uwi ni Joey, hehe :D Ayaw pa namin umuwi e. Tapos kay Camilla na lang daw kami sabay :) Ayun, baba kami[KamylJoeyandI] sa Marcos Highway, jeep papuntang Katipunan. At nagtatalo pa kami kung mag-mmeatshop pa o hindi :D Pagdating sa Katipunan, after a loooooooong discussion, mumeatshop nga kami hahahaha! Mygulay, bonding with Kamyl, hehe. At di pala umiinom si Kamyl, bad influence nananman si Joey hahaha.

Around 4.30 in the morning, we headed to McDo to eat Hash Browns. Hahaha. Hash Browns lang kinain namin, what losers. [Sarap tuloy mag-breakfast hehe] Tapos mga 6am uwi na kami, yiheee! Bukas na dorm ni Kamyl, antok na si bading, at ubos na rin ang Hash Brown namin kaya uwian naaa.

Tapos si bading pala humahyper acidity eklats na kaya tumitigil tigil uminom. Tsk. Buti na lang may dumaan na trike kung hindi baka namatay na talaga yung gago, haha. How stupid, di na lang sinabi na tama na inom, ang pride pride. Punta siyang hell >:)

When I got home, natulog ako. Bow.

2006-08-05T02:19:00.000+08:00

Eco was fucked up, period. Stupid test. Stoopid. Good thing umisaw! Yehey! :)

Nasayangan ako sa 200 ko sa pagnood ng Anarkista. The best pa rin yung Frankenstein, woo. Masyado kasing mahaba yung Anarkista, nakaka-bore na nung last part. Pero okay lang :)

Tinatamad nga pala akong gumawa ng lesson plan for tomorrow's NSTP. Rar..

Tapos.. Hay ewan ko.

Sige na, vavu.

2006-08-04T00:04:00.001+08:00

Masyado na atang maraming memories ang hindi ko naisulat, tsk, sayang. Parang gusto ko tuloy mag-backtrack ng onti. Onti lang :)

July 8 SATURDAY.
-Daring masyado ang sabadong ito. Kung irrate ito ng MTRCB, siguro PG13. Bwahaha.

July 9 SUNDAY.
-One WEIRD Sunday. Weird, anlakas ng trip ko sa araw na ito pero nakakatuwa naman, haha.

July 11 TUESDAY.
-Eto na yung R18 ng MTRCB hehe.

July 12 WEDNESDAY.
-Suspended yung classes dahil sa bagyo. Wendy's at kumot na lang ang masasabi ko.

July 15 ACIL BOS.
-Pengeng turon. Masaya pero nakakapagod :) At andaming tao! Last sem lang kasi ako nag-ACIL tapos last sem BOS parang onti lang kami. Congrats Cheenee! :)

GRILLA.
-Sadly, hindi ako nakapunta sa Grilla :( Nagkawasak-wasak ang plano, nawasak din ako. At may nagawang mali. Basta puro wrong move ako sa araw na 'to. Tapos hanggang ngayon e hindi ko pa nabibigay yung regalo dahil naman JAYSEN YUNG FRAME KUNIN MO NA PLEASE, hahaha.

July 16 HANGOVER.
-Guilt trip. Buong araw akong nakatunganga dahil nagsisisi ako sa mga nagawa ko. At nagtagal ito ng ilang araw. Super guilt! Haha. Sorry nga pala sa mga na-apektuhan ng aking mood. Sa mga natarayan ko, hehe. Cla, sorry :P

July 17 GUIDANCE TESTING.
-Weird ng test na yun. Pero hindi yun yung memorable sa araw na 'to. Muli akong sinampal ng katotohanan. Nung gabi, nagsimula uli akong mag-dasal ng todo, as in with matching tears, dahil pariwara na ako masyado. Haha.

July 19 ENGLISH.
-Lalong nawalan ng silver lining yung dark cloud ko, haha. Walang nakapag-patawa sakin sa araw na ito, at hindi ko ring nagawang itago yung lungkot ko. Nakalagay sa planner ko 'What a bad day'. Oo nga, what a bad day. Pangit na nangyari, nakakagulat at nakakabalisang balita, basta lahat na. RAR.

MADALING ARAW.
-'Suicidal' din ako kaninang madaling araw. Hence my July23 post.

July 20 FUTSAL.
-Nanalo sila Eric sa Futsal ngayon against Ravens. 2-1. How fun :) Pero hindi ko sila napanood. Late na kami ni Kim dumating, haha. Sinamahan ko rin si Kim at Eric mag-antay ng sundo.

July 21 ACIL FS.
-Pagkatapos ng FS, nauwi kami ni Bern at Joey sa pag-kain ng cheese sticks at Cheeseburger. Mahilig pala kami sa cheese.

July 22 AREA.
-Kasama ko na si Jano sa area, kasama ko pa rin si Kim. [Waa, pano na ang area kung lumipat si Kim ng area after NSTP? @_@ Nooo..]Honestly, wala kaming ginawa dahil ang onti ng kids. Pero may natutunan kaming bagong laro, tinuro ni Jano. Yung watermelon eklat na nakalimutan ko na. Namiss ko ang mga bata, pati yung mga kapit nila. Pero sobra naman yung kapit nila, hindi na sila bumibitiw. O bumibitaw. Ewan, kung alin man, basta yun na. Pero meron pa akong na-miss bukod sa mga kids. Si MICHEE*. Na-miss ko si michee. At na-miss din syempre ng mga kids si Ate Miggy. Pramis, na-miss ko si Michee. Naisip ko lang na kung ka-area ko pa siguro si Michee, siguradong may mga ipamimigay yun sa mga bata dahil first area. Ewan, sobrang thoughtful kasi e. Hay.. Siguradong magiging masaya ang mga bagong kids ni Michee sa Barangka :)

ACQUAINTANCE PARTY.
-Biglaan lang ang pagpunta ko sa Acquaintance Party. Hindi na sana dahil una, naka-oo na ako sa mga HS Batchmates ko na manonood kami ng movie. Ikalawa, wala akong costume, at ikatlo, wala rin akong transpo papunta kila Ate Rica. Mabuti na lamang at nakahanap ako ng costume within 2hours, at hindi na rin daw kami tutuloy sa movie. Si Nikki naman, nag-offer na susunduin ako. Ayoko talaga sana, kaso mapilit ang bata. Pramis, ayoko talaga, nakakahiya. Ang sagot sakin ni Nikki, 'Ako lang naman 'to e..' Siomai, hindi na ako naka-disagree. Tsk. Pero nahiya pa rin ako. Salamat :) Ah, at congrats uli, Cheenee! :)
-Sumabay naman ako kay Dino pauwi. Masyadong maalalahanin, tinext pa si Kiki na siguraduhing nakauwi ako. Bawal daw akong maglakad. Uh.. Hello, lagi ko kaya yun ginagawa. At buhay pa naman ako ngayon. Pero salamat. Aaminin kong nakakamiss rin maramdamang may nag-aalala saiyo, haha. Pero wag lang sumobra dahil nakakasakal yun :)

July 23 711.
-Nastranded ako sa 711, madaling araw. Oo, Dino, Hindi sana ako makakauwi, hahaha. Sana nakinig na lang ako sainyo ni Ma-anne [ACIL, hindi si Bossing], sana umuwi ako ng maaga. Pero masarap talaga ang ulan♥ lalo na kung may kumot.

July 27 ESPANOL.
-Gracias, Senor Eric! :) Salamat sa pagtulong sakin sa Sp LT ko kahit na-cancel bigla. BOO. Yikee, Eric :P

July 28 CUERVO.
-Ma-trip din ang araw na ito. Chicosci sana sa school kaso inulan, cancelled tuloy. KFC. Izwood. Hortaleza. Yan itinerary namin, haha. Naging sexcretary pa ako ni Badillo at Joey dahil pareho ata silang tamad makipag-negotiate sa mga tao. Ako pinakausap kay Hortaleza, balak nilang mag-ingay sa bahay niya. Hindi kami close. Nag-exchange lang kami ng papers isang beses sa Psych noong summer. Hindi ko pa nga siya dapat kilala pero nakwento ni Pao eklat eklat kaya tumatak na kung sino siya. Anyway, nakakagulat ang pag-uusap na yun. Sabi ko ako si Badillo. Wahaha. Summarize na natin. Bigla akong nakarating sa Izwood para lang bumili ng laruan [si Badillo yung bumili] at sa bahay ni Hortaleza. Nakilala ko uli si Jose sa bahay ni Hortaleza, talagang may topak yun sa ulo [si Jose]. Nahawaan pa ako. Nagresulta ito sa pag-ikot ng aking mundo at memory loss kinabukasn. Anlakas ng epektos ni Jose. A, naalala ko. Tinulak ako ni Joey. Salamat nga pala Badillo at Joey sa paghatid sakin, at sa tiwalang maayos pa ang utak ko :D Salamat din Hortaleza, isa kang nakakaaliw na nilalang na mukhang Koreano.

July 29 ~~NSTP.~~ HANGOVER II.
-Walang nangyaring NSTP dahil anlakas ng hangover ko. Hindi ako makagalaw ng maayos, nasusuka ako. Salamat Cla, Jano, at Kiki sa pag-intindi ng aking kalagayan, haha. Sorry, Jano, kung naiwan kitang mag-isa :( Salamat sa pag-print ng NSTP profile sheet kahit hindi ko nagamit, hehe. Salamat Cla, Kiki at Dino sa pag-aalala. Salamat sa kape at tubig mo Kiki. Salamat rin sa matulog ka na lang mo Cla. Dino, labo ng prescription mo. 'Patingin ka kaya sa doctor'. Hala. Haha.
-Meron pang isang kwentong nakakagimbal [sa part ko lang haha] na ayaw ko munang ikwento dito. It deserves a separate entry :P

July 30 STELLAR.
-Isa ba itong pamamaalam?

July 31 11am.
-Waw one last long usaps ha. Tapos balik na uli sa 'dati'? Ang astig mo naman, pare.

August 1 ID.
-Nawawala yung ID ko. Ngayon ko lang na-realize na nawawala yung ID ko. At naiwan ang payong sa kotsecar ni Badillo. Haha.
-Nag-bonding rin kami ni Ning at Anne sa dorm. Pinagchismisan namin si Elgin, hahaha.

August 2 CUT.
-Isa ngang pamamaalam.
-Nag-bonding rin nga pala kami ni Kiki, sa wakas, after soooo long. May na-discover kaming teacher-student relationship. Take note, HS pa lang yung bata. At ito pa. Same sex relationship! Hahaha. Actually gawa gawa ko lang yun pero feasible, pramis :) Tapos may nakita pa kaming taong parang ipis yung buhok. Haha salamat Kiki, nakalimutan ko ang lungkot dahil sa kabaliwan sa starbak :)

August 3 TANGA.
-Patuloy na naglalaho. Tanga ka kasi.
-Kami naman ni Cla nagbonding ngayon. Nag-isaw kami! Sa wakas, after so many months, nakapag-isaw na rin ako sa wakas. Kasama rin namin si Jano. Cla's mom went a litol berserk, hehe. [Lord wag sana itong mabasa ng nani ni Cla.] Pero masaya pa rin, sobra. Salamat Cla at Jano :) Actually malungkot rin ako ngayon, haha. Pero nakalimutan ko ang lungkot pansamantala :) Yehey!

August 4 NGAYON.
-Hindi ko alam kung anong mangyayari ngayon pero mag-iisaw kami ni Bern sa UP mamaya :)

Bigla ko lang narelaize na July was suuuuch a depressing month for me, haha. Puro emoshit lang ata yung nararamdaman ko. Masaya sa ibang araw pero generally waw emo ka pare.

AYAN sa wakas nailagay ko na ang lahat ng memories :) Sorry kung hindi maintindihan yung ibang parts, haha, inside stuff :P

Aral nako sa ECO!! Leche 1:40 am na. Ch1 2 and 3 pa lang naaaral ko out of 14 chapters. Shit. Waw goodluck diba.

♥
ruthie.

2006-08-03T16:12:00.000+08:00

Sabaw lahat ng longtests ko. Shit, na-lolow self esteem nanaman tuloy ako. Bad mood, bad mood. Noooo.. Ayokong ma-bad mood dahil lang sa pesteng tests. Una pa lang naman yun e, pwede pa bumawi. Pero siomai, shetshet. One big .l. na lang.

Teka isaw muna kami ni Cla. Bye.

2006-08-02T18:39:00.000+08:00

YEHEY! Activated na uli internet dito sa dorm :) Woo sa wakas. Now I don't have to go out at 2 in the morning just to research about pregnancy or kung ano man. Oh joy! Pero bawal muna ngayong gabi, aral muna ako! I have two long tests tomorrow and another one on Friday. Shet good luck na lang sa Eco.

Sige babush! :D Aral mode! Aral mode! Next time na ang kwento! :P Marami akong kwento, hindi ko na alam kung san ko sisimulan, haha :)

Bye.

♥
ruthie

PS Haha pustahan tayo hindi ako makakatagal sa aral mode. Magiinternek ako mamaya nito, bwahaha. How evil. Nooo, bawal. Pramis bawal. Kapag naginternek ako tas di ko pa tapos yung inaaral ko, hmm.. Ano.. Ewan ko, kayo nga magbigay ng parusa, haha :D

2006-07-31T04:42:00.000+08:00

Aymegad sobrang BORED AKO. Bored. Bored. Wala akong magawa sa dorm, ayoko pa mag-aral! Bored! Wala man lang thrill sa buhay ko, masyadong routinary my life omegad! Kanina lang may inaway ako hehe wala lang gusto ko lang ano ba tapos nakipagbati rin naman uli ako :D Wahaha. E sya namang unang nangaaway >:) Bwahaha. Pero sobrang wala talagang magawa sa dorm. Lumabas lang ako para magsimba tapos nawalan na ako ng gagawin. Mumumusic na lang ako at nakatunganga, nagaantay ng fire alarm para man lang may excitement sa dorm. Hay kadiri ang routinary na buhay. Sana maging superhero ako kahit isang araw bwahahaha.

Uwi na ako, umaga na. Yehey walang pasok! Woo. Hell week, hello to you.

2006-07-31T04:25:00.000+08:00

Meet me in outer space
We could spend the night;
Watch the earth come up.
I've grown tired of that place;
Won't you come with me?
We could start again.

How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew.

Meet me in outer space.
I will hold you close, if you're afraid of heights.
I need you to see this place, it might be the only way
That I can show you how
It feels to be inside of you.

How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.

You are stellar
You are stellar

How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
It's better than I ever knew.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.
How do you do it?
Make me feel like I do.

2006-07-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

Wow long weekend, huh? :)

I almost forgot to update about our first area day and the ACIL Acquaintance party. But I'll do that later, I have Theo now now :)

Vavushka! :P

2006-07-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

Before I go home, I must tell you something.

Naiihi na ako. At gutom na ako. At wala ring pasok bukas. May bagyo pala, di ko man lang alam. Kaya pala ang lakas ng ulan buong araw. Pati kahapon. Madaling araw. Pagkatapos ko gawin yung entry ko dito kahapon, lumabas na ako ng internek cafe and to my horror, ang lakas ng ulan. 3:10am. Napaupo na lang tuloy ako sa 711 habang umiinom ng Chuckie. Nagantay akong humina yung ulan. Buti na lang after mga 20 minutes humina na nga yung ulan.

Naglakad ako papuntang dorm. Mahaba haba pang lakad. Mabilis na naglakad. Bilis. Bilis, baka lumakas ang ulan. Malapit na ako sa Xanland, ako lang ba o parang lumalakas the rain? Pagdating ko sa KFC, bumuhos ang ulan. Kumusta naman diba. Wala na akong nagawa, tumuloy na lang ako ng lakad. Binagalan ko na, basa na rin lang naman ako. Yinakap ko yung plastic na naglalaman ng sarong na ginamit ko sa Acquaintance party. Pagtingin ko baba, naalala kong manipis nga pala ang suot kong blouse. Naloka ang lola mo, hahaha. Napabilis na lang uli ako ng lakad, baka ma-rape ako :D Haha.

Pagdating ko sa dorm, kumatok ako. Ate, Ate.. Ate pabukas po. Ate.. Aba naman talagang malas yan. Walang bumubukas. Ateeeee.. Wala pa rin. Tumalikod ako sa gate, nakita ko ang ulan na sumasayaw. Ang lakas ng hangin, ang lamig.. Pero natuwa naman akong nakikita kong sumasayaw ang ulan. Biglang bumukas yung gate. Morning Ate. Salamat. Pumasok na ako.

Ay teka Ate may titingnan lang ako!

Lumabas uli ako, tumingin sa kaliwa. Nakita ko ang aking kumot. Napangiti uli ako.

Ok na Ate. Salamat.

The end.

Now I go home, bye :)

2006-07-23T01:22:00.000+08:00

Wanna die?

Sometime.

Me too. Hrm.

But don't.

I know..

So dnt.

I wont. But I want. I hope for unexpected carbon monoxide in my lungs.

Frizzle. Stop wanting.

I'm not wanting 'wanting'. If. Then better.

Reason?

Litol faith.

Pebble.

With s. Pebbles. Nytnyt.

The world will sleep soundly tonight with you.

Go to sleep.

Everything you say to me takes me one step closer to the edge.. And... I'm. About.. To... Sleep.

Sleep now. Life is easy with eyes closed. I'll die as you sleep. Nyt.

Sleep brings about the end.. End the winner is.. nyt.

Goodnight, tonight, goodbye.

Goodnight cruel world :)

♥
ruthie

2006-07-19T04:17:00.000+08:00

I don't want to spend too much time with people anymore. Bigla akong sumasnap kahit wala namang dahilan or kahit wala namang ginagawa sakin yung mga tao. Parang.. Bigla na lang akong napupuno. Gusto kong ibagok ulo nila sa pader >:)

Nawawalan na rin ako ng gana makisama sa mga kwentuhang gwapo maganda boys chicks. Konti lang ang taong nakakaalam na I treat those stuff as kababawan. Ok lang if people discuss it with me pero problema lang dun hindi ko alam kung ano isasagot ko. I can't agree na oo hot gwapo nga kahit na wala naman talaga akong pakialam. I can't disagree either. Mashahaba lang yung topic kung ganun. Usually, tatawanan ko lang. Makikisabay na lang ako sakanila. Akala ko kakayanin kong ganun lang ako palagi. Ni hindi nga sumagi sa isip ko na kaya ko palang maasar dahil lang sa paulit ulit at walang katapusan na boys here boys there chicks here chicks there everywhere chick chick.
***
I think I take everyone for granted.

So I think I owe everyone my apologies.

Sorry everyone.
***
Dati, kapag uuwi ako ng dorm, magaan sa loob ko. Ok lang kahit wala na akong lakad, alam kong andun si Inay sa room or si Golda. Pero mas madalas si Inay. Ok lang na darating ako sa room na makalat at nakakaantok at may mga babaeng nakaunderwear lang hehe. Ok lang na biglang papasok si Golda sa room at tensed na tensed dahil magsisimula na yung Encantadia. Ok lang na manonood na lang kami ng Encantadia kahit na hindi ko kilala yung mga characters [pero kilala ko na sila after ilang weeks at sumusubaybay na rin ako hehe]. Ok lang na naguusap kami. Ok lang na hindi kami naguusap. Ok lang na lahat kami may kanya kanyang ginagawa. Ok lang na may nakakalat na Box-o-Rice boxes sa lahat ng sulok ng room. Ok lang na wala na kaming mahigaan sa kama sa sobrang kalat ng gamit. Ok lang na tulugan namin ang lahat ng kailangang gawin. Ok lang na magising kaming tanghali na. Ok lang na ma-late kami. Ok lang na under 5minutes ang ligo namin, makahabol lang sa klase. Ok lang na mag-cut kami. Ok lang uminom ako. Ok lang uminom kami. Ok lang maging friends yung roomates ko at yung mga kaibigan ko. Ok lang na kaibigan ko yung kaibigan ng roomates ko. Basta ok lang lahat..

Pero ngayon.. Iba na roomates ko. Hindi na mga boldstars. Iba na rin yung feeling kapag uuwi na ako. Kung pwede lang tumakas sa pag-uwi. Pagdating ng 4.30 kapag mwf at 3 naman kapag tth, mawawalan na ako ng pupuntahan. Lalabas ako ng room, maglalakad ako. Maglalakad lang. Hindi alam kung san pupunta. Kahit saan, wag lang sa dorm. Ayokong umuwi. Ayokong umuwi sa room na maayos at hindi nakakaantok at walang mga babaeng nakaunderwear. Ayokong manood ng My Girl o PBB o kung ano mang ABSCBN show. Ayokong naguusap kami. Ayokong hindi kami naguusap. Ayokong wala silang ginagawa pero ako meron. Ayokong walang Box-o-Rice boxes na nakakalat. Ayokong walang gamit sa kama nila. Ayokong hindi sila tamad. Ayokong early birds sila. Ayokong ayaw nila ma-late. Ayokong antagal nila sa banyo. Ayokong hindi sila nagccut. Ayokong hindi ako pwede uminom sa room. Ayokong hindi sila pwede uminom. Ayokong hindi sila magkakakilala ng mga kaibigan ko. Basta ayoko lahat.. Naiinis ako bigla.

In short, ibang iba yung new roomates ko sakin. Ang hirap makisama sakanila. Parang wala silang humor. Napaka-uptight ng buhay nila. It's so hard to be myself. Parang.. Parang kailangan ko silang turuan mag-flush ng toilet.

Hay.. O baka wala na talaga akong socialization skills. Miss ko na si Badette. Pati si Golda..

2006-07-13T20:17:00.000+08:00

Memoirs of a Geisha--Mad TV

HAH natawa ako sobra. Yehey! :D Ang kulit :)

May pasok na bukas, yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak ang supot!

Waa gusto ko ng ano.. ng Faspitch gig. Rawr. Anytime we are together, I feel like staying this way foreveeerrrr.. Aaaah. Omegad ang galing @_@

Wala na akong masabi. Bye.

2006-07-12T10:11:00.000+08:00

Ewan.

Biglang na badmood ako.

Hay..

***
I hate Ateneans. HAHA. Ewan. Biglang angst kaninang English e. Bigla kong nasabi aloud Hay puro sarili habang nageexplain si J ng 'biggest problem' sa Ateneo. Lack of infrastructures daw. Aba naman.. Kulang pa ba? Kulang? Kulang?? ANONG KULANG SA INFRASTRUCTURES SA ATENEO?? Alam nyo bang maraming kabataan ang hindi makapag-aral kahit gusto nila at kaya naman nilang bayaran ang tuition fee o kung ano man dahil KULANG SA CLASSROOMS yung schools nila?? Alam nyo ba na ang 1:100 ang teacher-student ratio sa karamihan ng paaralan sa Metro Manila? Metro Manila pa lang yan ha, wala pa ang mga probinsya. Alam nyo bang mayroong ibang paaralan na may rotations ng grade level/year level sa bawat classroom para lang ma-accomodate ang lahat ng enrollees at lahat ng estudyante? At alam nyo bang four hours a day lang ang ina-allot para sa isang grade o isang year? Halimbawa: Si Teacher X ay mayroong 70 grade 1 students kapag umaga. 7am-11am ang pasok ng mga grade 1. Pagsapit ng 1pm, 70 grade 2 students naman ang tuturuan ni Teacher X. At wala pa dyan ang night shift nya sa HS. Waw. 70 students? Isang guro? 140 students, iisang classroom? May matutunan pa kaya ang mga bata sa ganyang sitwasyon? Sakit sa ulo no? At hindi ko pa nga nababanggit ang ibang mga klase na talagang halo halo na ang mga estudyante sa iisang classroom [oo, iisa lang ang oras ng pagtuturo ng humigit kumulang 40 students of each grade level. Si Teacher X ay marunong mag multi-tasking. Kaya niyang magturo sa Grade 6 habang may activity na ginagawa ang Grade 5. Waw advanced technology ang tawag dyan pare]

**Lahat ng nabanggit ko sa taas factual. Napanood ko noong June sa isang show sa GMA ang lahat ng iyan. Sus ko, ginising ko pa Nanay ko para manood na rin siya. Pati para may kasama akong angsty hehe

Omegad. Sige nga, kulang ba tayo sa infrastructures? Men and women for others daw pero hindi nila kayang mag-isip beyond their comfort. Puro pagpapabuti ng campus nila.

Atenean din ako. Minsan ganun din naman ako sa mga ego centric Ateneans.. Pero hindi naman siguro lagi. Hay ewan ko kung bakit pa ako nagaaral. A oo pala, para magkaron ng sapat na kaalaman at makaisip kung papaano ko matutulungan ang iba. Long term goal. Maayos naman kaya ang maging outcome nun?

Ewan.

Don't get me wrong. Okay naman yung mga immersion stuff ng Ateneo. Andyan yung mga orgs na for 'service', tapos yung mga INTACT eklat, basta kung ano ano pa. Ironic lang talaga na gusto kong makatulong sa mga kapos palad pero nagaaral ako sa isang unibersidad na isang whopping 55thousand ang tuition per sem. Pero kung hindi naman ako nagaral sa unibersidad na napakamahal ng tuition, siguro hindi ko lubos na magugustuhang maglingkod. Kasi nung HS, wala, wala akong mafeel na spark sa school ko. May mga date a child chuva chenes, medical missions pero parang walang dedication yung mga kasama ko. Ganun din siguro sa ibang orgs ngayon. At minsan din naman e may ka-echingan ang ACIL hehe pero.. Ewan ko. Kailangan ko na nga palang i-meet si Cla.

Tsk.. Angst is a buhd thing.

Bye!

2006-07-11T22:10:00.000+08:00

Nagpunta uli ako sa lugar na mailaw na maganda malamig weow :)

Bakit kaya may mga taong madaling pagkwentuhan.. Kahit na yung mga sobrang gusto mo na talagang kalimutan na experience dahil nakakatawang nakakahiya ang corny sobra dapat na burahin sa memory e biglang nakkwento hahaha. Tapos.. Tapos may mga tao talagang kahit medyo nagtatampo ka hehe e kapag nakausap mo na, parang wala na agad yung tampo. Ok lang, wala yun na lang yung masasabi mo. Totoo naman syempre.. Pero hindi nya lang alam na talagang umiiyak ka na sa tampo noong mga nakaraang araw hehe. Pero kababawan lang syempre yung tampo. Pero!! E sa tampo ako, yun na period :P Period ko nga pala ngayon!! HAHAHAHA i-announce ba.. Pero kasi dati end of the month period ko tapos biglang iba na. 8th-10th day of the month na nagsisimula. TEKA hindi dapat yun yung kinikwento ko. Wahaha.

Anyway. Oo, yun, tampo tapos biglang wala na agad pag nakausap na. Sabay nagtatawanan na lang kayo, hehe. Tapos maiisip mo na lang, bat ko kaya nagawang magtampo sakanya. Syempre may sagot ang lola mo dyan! :p Siguro kasi nakakamiss lang. Hinahanap hanap mo yung pagsasamahan niyo tapos kapag hindi ka napagbigyan, parang, rawr patayin kita e. HAHAHA. Mali naman siyempre yun. Na nagtatampo dahil napakakaitan ka ng panahon. Nakakamiss nga pero kailangan mo pa rin intindihin na nagiiba ang panahon.. Ewan ko. Basta lang ako nagtatayp ng kung anong pumasok sa isip ko, haha.

May mga tao ring ang hirap makausap. Parang takot kang mali masabi mo, or hindi sya makarelate o kung ano. Basta. Ayoko lang nung puro boys at chicks. Hahahaha, at talagang diniretso ko na. Basta yun. Ang hirap talaga makahanap ng mga boys at chicks este kaibigan na kahit ano napaguusapan nyo.. Yung kahit na kamachile na lang pinagtatawanan nyo pa [hehe sino kaya nakakarelate ditoooooo hehehe].

EWAN!!

Nagbibilang ako ng mga kaibigan kong diverse yung topics kapag naguusap kami..

5. Five. Cinco. Parang boyband lang a.. Haha. [hindi kabilang ang aking HS barkada na todo diverse talaga ang usapan dahil bangag silang lahat]. Tapos ilan kaya ang kakilala ko? Marami naman siguro. Sa friendster, may 300+ akong friends. Sa totoong buhay may mga.. 100 siguro. Waw, parang ang onti.. Ewan basta marami rami naman siguro. Hindi naman ako todong anti-social. Friendly naman ako e. Wahahaha. Five lang sakanila ang diverse. Omegad *_* bakit ganun.. Dapat na magbreed yung 5 kong kaibigan na diverse!! Haha :)

Point ko lang.. AYOKO NG BABAY!! [oo may hangover pa ako kaya talagang ayoko ng babay]. Ewan.. Sobrang nagpapasalamat akong nakakilala ako ng kasing abnormal ko o kung ano man. Basta yun na. Gets naman na e. Basta. E lima na lang nga yung ka-abnormal ko so pano pa yan kung babay? Argh.. Ewan! Ok lang siguro kung i-lessen lang yung usap.. o kaya yung pagkikita, pagsasama, ganyan ganyan.. Lessen = mga once a week. Hahaha! :D Ewan, basta point ko lang uli, ayoko ng babay :) Pero depende pa rin kung ano ang ikabubuti ng mga mamamayan :)

ARGH labuan entry! :D

Sige babay, bukas na ang totoong update :)

2006-07-11T17:08:00.000+08:00

Hindi ako inclined sa ano.. landscape photography. Or baka feeling ko lang. Pero mas gusto ko pala kasing pidyuran yung mga tao.. Haruru :) Haha.

Kahapon nag tour de france kami sa gradeschool. Nagtake ako ng photos. Wala lang, masaya. Sana maging maganda na ang wedur para maganda lighting!! Ayoko talaga gumamit ng flash, hindi pa ako masyadong marunong, haha.

Tapos pala may magandang spot sa may cervini! Ack, ang ganda, woooo! Some emo shit. City lights shine like daya mo. Bwaha :) BASTA. Dalhin kita dun kung gusto mo. Dali taas kamay ang walang paa. Labo. Heh, go to hell. Hahaha.

Sige maya na update. Bye :)

2006-07-05T00:23:00.000+08:00

Thanks again, LOU and Wenz for keeping me company tonight :) Maraming salamat kahit biglaan, talagang subsob ako sa impyerno ngayong gabi T_T Ang hirap pa maghanap ng kasama. Hay. Mga tao pang hindi ko inaasahang sasama saakin at makikinig at magkkwento at magpapatawa pa ang sumalo sakin. HAY. Salamat talaga, sobra.

Sa dami ng tinext ko.. Tss.. Kaibigan ba? Haha. Isang malaking HA-HA sainyo, taragis.

Makuyam lang, iuragan akong maray. Pati na ngani mga tawong nasa harayong lugar tigkauron ko na para lang may ma'kaiba' ako dawa na harayuon talaga sinda. Haaaay.. Hain ang mga tawong nagtataram na amiga/amigo ko sinda kapag ako na ang may kaipuhan? Hain? Nata ta bigla na sana kamong nawara? Minsan pano ako man ang nanganga-ipo. Dai man ako naghahagad ki dakulaon na bagay, para prisensya nindo. Para madangog kamo, maski diit lang. Diit lang na panahon. Diitun lang. Hay.. Angst. Paruton pano. Haaay :)

2006-07-04T16:28:00.000+08:00

When you think everything's finally going your way

Your phone rings

And you say

Anyeonghaseo?

The other line says

No habla espanol.

You say

Fuck you eedi-yot.

The end.

2006-06-30T10:49:00.000+08:00

Haha had to get my old layout back. Wala lang. But I had to repost your comments, HaloScan kasi gamit ko sa layout na 'to e. Pardon me if the dates of your were changed; I still have to remember my username and password in HaloScan in ordertaker for me to change the dates back to their original position. Waw labo nun a.. Haha. But anyway, nagreply naman na ako sa comments :P hehe.

I got this weird ESP Test link from 3na but I lost the link. Oh wait, I found it. Go HERE. It's a freaky little test :) Hahaha. Go try :)

Before I say buhbye..

June29

HAPPY DEBUT RACHELLE FAUSTINO!♥
sorry, wasn't able to go online yesterday so ayan na :)

*THANK YOU Lou sa venue. Hahaha nung debut mo yan e :D hehe

June30
HAPPY BIRDY DEDE! Hehe. Happy birdy Didi!

Ayaaan :)

Low Batt mi laptop! Bye! :)

sunburn.

2006-06-27T15:50:00.000+08:00

Aaaaaahhh.. Faspitch. Weow. Mapapatulala ka na lang. Sobrang galing ampota baliw na banda!! Nako nakakalaway talaga..

Pero mamaya ko na sila pagmamayabang, nawiwiwi na ako, haha! Alis na ako! Babay!

I LOVE YOU FASPITCH!! ♥

DANTES tingnan mo title ko o wahaha :P

Drive.

2006-06-26T01:27:00.000+08:00

My [long] weekend was a blast.

Mabilis na update:
Thursday with ACIL.
Lakehouse, Kopiroti + bbq from the store beside Kopiroti haha.
Friday with the band na dapat na magdisband hehe.
LoadRev-ed for me and the slut, almost finished The Book of MORE Useless Information [yes kiki, this is where I learn USELESS info hahaha], got lost in Ateneo HS, McDo with the band na dapat na magdisband hehe [kasama talaga yung hehe].
Saturday with Lou and Wenz.
Bummed the whole morning but had to wake up to burn Pao their video [hehe peacey peacey!!], YEY Pao burned me Faspitch yeaboy [unfortunately, I ordered 5 CD's but not one of them was for me], ISO dorm with Lou, Teriyaki Boy, Tokyo Drift with Lou and Wenz, ISO.
*Luis Manzano was in Tokyo Drift hahaha. Just some guy who absolutely looked like him. HAHA.
Sunday with Lou again [Yeah we were together for more than 24 hours straight, gadamit].
ISO, Domino's, Peabo [she's a new friend yey!], Joey's slurpise from Lou and I, Lou's fur ball coughing sound, Lou's stupid jerking movements, Lou's bankruptcy, Lou's.. Oh nevermind. Bottomline is I was with Lou for 24hours++ and she's getting weirder every minute. Might be my influence. Hahaha!

Update soon. Must do Eco HW [damnit]. Didn't know we had one! Good Cha told me. Good she went to La Strada, too. Haynako, Cha always [AS IN ALWAYS] saves my ass. [Hi Mika! hehe] Now let me see.. Do I have an Eco book.. Hrm.. No? Ok, better do my HW tomorrow. WAW haha labo.

Bye, I have to read theo readings :)

Goodnight! I'm feeling very happy today. And yesterday. And the day before yesterday. Wow.. Happy. Yeah, temporary happiness :) Yey! :)

2006-06-23T23:45:00.000+08:00

Tuwing lumalabas ako sa dorm at tumatambay sa aming balcon, laging may ipis. Papasok uli tuloy ako sa kwarto tapos kukunin ko yung Baygon. Magsspray ako sa lahat ng sulok ng balcon. Magugulantang na lang yung ipis. Maya maya mangingisay na. Hay maraming salamat, Baygon. Mwah.

***
Haha nakakatawang text. Preeeeettttty. Haha, benta :)

Bye! :P

EDIT Hay, hindi pa rin pala ako nagbabago. Sumasakit pa rin yung dibdib ko kapag kinakamusta ako. Parang kagabi.. Nageexplain lang ako kung pano ako nalugmok sa shit na 'yun' e parang sinisqueeze na yung lungs ko. Waw weird. Hay.. Kung mamamatay na ako, Lord, make it quick. Hehe I don't want pain. Zangkyo :) /EDIT

2006-06-23T15:55:00.000+08:00

Awwww! Croatia :( Croatia! Aww.. Croatia.. Poor Croatia :( I sad.. Fuckin Aussies. Hate you. Hate you. Hurt Aussies :) Yey!

YEY BRASIL! Yey! YEY! :D Me happy! :) Four goals for Brasil despite Japan's strong defense. Rolando scored 2 goals. Yiheee! :) Next game's on Tuesday vs Ghana :) Sabay ng Italy vs AUSTRALIA. LET'S ALL WATCH AND BADMOUTH AUSTRALIA! hahaha, 11pm at Blue Eagle! :) WOOOOOOH. And on Sunday, too! England vs Ecuador! Let's go England.

Thank you, Cheenee and Cheenee's sister for fetching me AT 3AM, hahaha! Para kaming adik :D Tamad na sana talaga ako e. Pero buti na lang talaga.. It was a such a great game for Rolando and Cicinho and basta lahat :) Bawi dapat si Kaka and Rolandinho and Robinho nek game :) Haha. Tama ka, Cheenee, nakakatuwa kapag nag-ssmirk si Rolandinho :D Haha.

I'm going to watch England's game with Lou :) Join us! Join us! :)

I hate Australia.. Croatia, Croatia :( Huuu..

vampire.

2006-06-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

Nais ko lang sabihin na..

Ang galing ni Kaka :D Waaargh. At ahoy nakakalaway pa o. HAHAHA. Huwowzuh!

Iyon lamang :) Let's go Brazil! Hurray for killing Australia. Bwahaha >:) CLA akin na yang cord mo!!

e-games.com.ph

2006-06-19T17:18:00.000+08:00

Muntik na akong ma-late kaninang umaga sa Taichi. Nagising ako 10mins to 8am! Buti pagdating ko mag-ccheck pa lang ng attendance. Yehey!! At ang bilis lang namin natapos, mga 8mins lang ata kaming andun weow. At buti na lang ganun kabilis dahil nakapambahay pa ako wahaha. Balik agad ako ng dorm para maligo, woo. Yehes, ang kadiri ko hahaha. Nag-toothbrush naman ako e :D

So far, MUKHANG okay profs ko except pala sa isa.. Economics. Boring at.. at corny hehe. Tapos mahina boses ng onti. Tapos may index cards. Wala lang, para kasing hindi professional kapag may index cards, haha! D, trip ko lang yun isama :) PERO nag-provide sya ng index cards para samin. Wow.. Siguro may index card fetish siya, no? Hrm..

Ayos din yung History and Theo! Humihirit, yeahboy. Haha, pati nakakatawa yung hirit, tas basta masaya. Para silang si Sir Atienza; okay yung atmosphere ng klase, hindi tensed pero may pinatutunguhan yung leksyon at talagang may matututunan :) Well well.. We'll see kung ayos nga talaga sila :) Tomorrow, tomorrow.. Kumusta kaya ang Math teacher ko.. Baka biglang bawi sa Math teacher ko, nako wag please wag.

Hindi ko pala alam kung mag-lload rev ako. Gusto ko i-drop yung PolSci for English.. Watyutenk? Haha, kaso kaso, eto nanaman yung kaso.. Hassle e. Katamad! :D

Panawagan:

ACIL, sana maayos iyong room dahil balak kong matulog dun :D Haha! Tago muna ako para hindi ako tumulong sa pag-ayos. JOKIE! :)

KIKI ang daya mo!! Dapat hindi ka nagpalipat ng section! RAWR! Daya! Dapat nag-dusa ka sa kamay ni.. Hehe secret :P Kasi kung d ka nagpalipat, siguradong matatanggal ilong mo sa class niya. Haha wala lang, naalala ko lang the 'chop off' chuvarlooeklat :P At hoy buti nagkita tayo! Do we have the same room and teacher for Theo?
CLA, it was nice seeing you! Although kadiri naman ang bilis bilis! Pati hindi pa ako abnormal nung mga oras na yun kaya tuloy hindi ako makapagsalita. Leech. Oh and zangkyo for the pursey! :) I needed a purse. Yey, nice timing! :) But I also want your Brazil cord! Omegad hehe. Nanay mo ako, dapat sumusunod ka sa utos ko :P
PAO gagi adik na kayo ni Dantes sa o2jam o kung ano mang nilalaro niyo. Makinig ka na lang sa Faspitch na binili pa ni Cha para sainyo [thanksomuch Cha! mwahaaaggggs!!]
CHA shit thank you thank you THANK YOU for Faspitch!! I can't wait for their gig. I love Cebu. and Cebu bands except Cueshe. I love you Chagwapajud. HAHA lesbie leeeesbie :D
INTWODAYS skoombags kayo! Ano ne kanta nyo tae tae ansarap nyo idisband e! Pero pala sabi ni Trish tugtog kayo sa beerday nya sa August! Wag niyo sana i-disafoink si Trish.. at ang groupies niyo :) Hehe. Malapit lang bahay nila sa bahay nila Badillo at nila Pao [ata]. Basta dun na! GAME NA HA. July na hoy HappyHellish na thirdsong anakngtipaklong.
PAPA, Happy Father's Day :D haha! Sobrang guilty ang lola mo dahil hindi ako nakapag-padala ng card huhu :( Pero ayan na, ginireet ko na nga e. Yehey!

Sigeeee.. Babay, papa-ayos siguro ako ng bujoks. Haba na e. Pero.. Nooo.. Ayaw. Pero.. Eh. Bahala na vavuuu!

iloveyouchathanksagainhehe

♥
aketch.

Pangya.

2006-06-19T03:35:00.000+08:00

Happy father's day! Err.. Belated :)

First day of classes. Well.. Hope today goes well. Can't wait for Friday.. Must intoxicate self. HAHA.

Bye.

Koozie.

2006-06-17T09:34:00.000+08:00

Anniversary ng nanay at tatay ko ngayon! Yikeeee.. Etoooo. Eto sila. Yikeeee.. Hahaha.

Wahaw. White team. Haha. Ayoko mag-install ng scanner. Ayan, pinicture ko na lang yung picture. Yikeeeeeeeee♥. Hahaha Ang labo koooo.

One year na rin since my first.. my first.. my first meatshop adventure! Wahaaaaw! :D Wala lang. Binago lang ang buhay ko ng pangyayaring iyon. Sohoreeeh naman.. Hahaha. Nakakatawa lang talagang isipin.. Isang taon.. Waa, andaming nangyari. Sobrang binago as in BINAGO talaga cheverloo yung buhay ko ng tek at event na yun. Natatawa pa rin ako kapag naaalala ko ang biglaang pag-meatshop. Natatawa rin ako sa.. BASTA natatawa ako. 'Pucha't pumayag naman ako. Nagbalak pa nga akong magdala ng gunting e. :D HAHAHA! loko lang :) twice pa lang kami nagkikita! :D hahaha! Yeeesss.' Oo nga naman, twice pa lang kami nagkikita sabay waw close na tayo hahaha. Biruin mo, ang inosente kong 'bata' tapos binabanatan ako ng isang estranghero ng meatshop. Tapos hindi ko pa alam kung ano yun.. Sabay ngayon e ♥ ko na si Ate Rona :D Haha. Ano un? Bbili tayo ng karne? Hahaha. :p

Tsk.. Nakakatawang nakakahiyang reply, bwaha. Paano na lang kaya kung hindi ako pumayag na mag"McDo"? Edi.. Edi iba yung takbo ng buhay ko ngayon. Siguro loner ako. Hahaha! Siguro good girl pa ako. Siguro nagddroga na ako. Siguro.. Siguro hindi ako.. Wala :) Zikrit. Hahaha! Point is, buti na lang talaga.. Argh.. Buti na lang tangina bakit parang naluluha ako takte anobayan bat parang mali yung reaction ko waaa abnoy ko grabe.. Lungkoooot.

***

MARAMING SALAMAT JANTZ KATE RACHE YAS PORTIA MAGGI CHARM. Maraming salamat sa date :) I loves you all :P Hehehe.

Hanggang sa muli! Paalam! :)

Nigga.

2006-06-17T05:04:00.000+08:00

gangsta.

Wag niyo na itanong kizzle anong nakain ko't gusto ko ng old schoo` layout . I'm a mutha fuckin 2-time felon.. Wala lang . Aint no L-I-M-I-to-tha-T. Ibabalik ko rin mamaya iyong dizzle kizzong layout :P Hahaha fo' sho'.

Yeah I'm tizzy stange.. Hizzy.

Tapos talagang lag'n walang koneksyon yung titles ko sa entries. Kaya yan ganyan e para maalala ko kizzle asan ako noong gumawa ako ng entry, haha . Tru niggaz do niggaz. Tulad niyan, playa. Pagtingin ko kasi sa baba ko e may kahon ng Hustla cuz its a G thang. So ayun na. Ayun na ang kuwento yeah yeah baby. Babay na, umaga nanaman, almusal nanaman ito :) Hahaha fo gettin yo pimp on. Tapos papaderma ako! Wahaha like a motha fucka. Babay blackheezees!

Yaks kadiri nanaman ako :D Bwajokjok :P

EDIT Oo nga pala, ngayon ko lang napublish yung isa pizzay entry dated June 15, 2006. Yung may beach . Ya fuck with us, we gots to fuck you up. Wala lang, papansin lang, wahahha from tha streets of tha L-B-C. BASTA YUN NAAA . Relax, cus I'm bout to take my respect! BABAY fo yo bitch ass. /EDIT

Above is nigga translation of my previous post. Want some? Come get some.

Chill yo.

naturalizer.

2006-06-16T05:56:00.000+08:00

Wag niyo na itanong kung anong nakain ko't gusto ko ng old school layout. Wala lang. Ibabalik ko rin mamaya iyong dati kong layout :P Hahaha.

Yeah I'm that stange.. Hrm..

Tapos talagang laging walang koneksyon yung titles ko sa entries. Kaya yan ganyan e para maalala ko kung asan ako noong gumawa ako ng entry, haha. Tulad niyan, naturalizer. Pagtingin ko kasi sa baba ko e may kahon ng Naturalizer. So ayun na. Ayun na ang kuwento.

Babay na, umaga nanaman, almusal nanaman ito :) Hahaha. Tapos papaderma ako! Wahaha. Babay blackheads!

Yaks kadiri nanaman ako :D Bwajokjok :P

EDIT Oo nga pala, ngayon ko lang napublish yung isa pang entry dated June 15, 2006. Yung may beach. Wala lang, papansin lang, wahahha. BASTA YUN NAAA! BABAY. /EDIT

EDIT EDIT Eto pala yung cbox ko hahaha!

oha, labo :D

/EDIT EDIT

2006-06-16T05:26:00.000+08:00

Nananawagan po ako.. Kung sino man nakakita sa mga nawawala kong anak, pakidala na lang po sila sa Jollibee. Tiyak gutom na sila.

Si Ella, ang aking anak kay Joey, umuwi ka na beybi.. Baka mawala ka. Hinihintay ka na ng dinis-own mong Tatay.

Si Cla, ang aking anak kay Armo, nasaan ka? Hindi ko sigurado kung si Armo nga ang Tatay mo pero sige ok lang hehe. Alam kong nagdadalaga ka na, Agot.. Alam kong hindi ka na bagets. Alam ko yun, may insticts talaga ang mga nanay. Sana umuwi ka na, sana wag ka na maglayas. Pinapakain naman kita ng mabuti a.

Si Pao, ang aking anak kay.. Uh.. SINO BA TATAY MO. Basta si Pao. Alam kong Tatay este nanay ka na rin pero wag mo naman sana kalimutan ang iyong ina [ako yun]. Nagdadalamhati ako dahil nawawala ka. Kapag hindi ka pa umuwi papaluin na kita. Hindi kita bibigyan ng kanin at higit sa lahat.. Babawiin ko ang lahat ng porns mo. Magtanda ka na sana.

Ayan.. Sa lahat ng nawawala kong anak.. Please. Wag niyo nang hintayin na magunaw ang mundo. Paparating na sa Majinboo. Kung ano man ang totoong spelling ng pangalan niya sorry hindi ko alam. Basta siya yung pink na kalaban ni Jigglypuff. Hoy mga anak.. Namimiss ko na kayo. Kapag 'di pa kayo umuwi maghahanap na uli ako ng bagong anak. Bwahaha.

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tangina ano daw?

2006-06-15T05:27:00.000+08:00

HELLO SUNSHIIIIIIINE.

I was thirsty. I went to the kitchen. The I went up to the balcony. Or maybe terrace. Whatever. I was just going to check my Sun. Couldn't find signal, boo. Maybe Sun's down or something. ANYWAY. I went up and gosh, lovely view! Lalalalooovely.

That's the moon and the Mayon :) The second one's taken just after a minute. Waw, light travels fast. WAW LABOOOO.

Oh and this little insect was slowly dying. Teehee! Wings were wet, couldn't fly. Aww.. I'll let the birds do the killing. Teeeeeheeee! >:) *Sorry labo fidgers cameraphong lang e pero okay na yan upakan ko kayo*

I was about to go to my other home [it's complicated. we have two houses the left and the right. basta wag mo na alamanin sasakit ulo mo haha] when I saw a glimpse of sunrise! Wahaw. No, not exact the sun rising up and all that shit. Just yelloworangey clouds. HERE LET ME SHOW YOOOOUUU.

Now who could resist a beautiful scene like that? :D hahaha! Not me. Sooo.. I went up the roofietop and took pictures! :) I was [I still am hmp] a bit disappointed, though. I only had my phone with me, huhu. So sayang, the pictures don't give justice to the lovely 'sunrise'. Hmp. A part of the sky was blood red and another part was orange and then yellow and ~~green~~! Joklang sa green :P But oh well! Hahaha.

AAACK. Blogger's having trouble uploading the photos so I'll just upload it later :) Breakfast muna ako :D

That's all, bow.

GOOD MORNING SICK SICK WORLD! :)

JVC, hari ng padala.

2006-06-15T03:14:00.001+08:00

Oh and I went to the bitch. Yey! Beach is fun. Beach is good. Let's go back! Come back. Come back Jack.

That is not my foot, I'm sorry. Hrm.. Bakit kaya laging may kiddo sa harap ng boat.. Cla Maan and Kiki, naalala nyo yung Hundred Islanders? Haha dba may kid din dun? :D Wahaha wala lang :)

Kunwari walang problema yung pic :D

YIKEEE! Haha, my foot and my cousin's :)

That is THE cousin. You infertile butch. HAHAHA.

Err.. Tama na muna yan. BREAKFAST NA TALAGA AKO PRAMIS.

BUUUUY!

2006-06-15T03:14:00.000+08:00

Oh and I went to the bitch. Yey! Beach is fun. Beach is good. Let's go back! Come back. Come back Jack.

That is not my foot, I'm sorry. Hrm.. Bakit kaya laging may kiddo sa harap ng boat.. Cla Maan and Kiki, naalala nyo yung Hundred Islanders? Haha dba may kid din dun? :D Wahaha wala lang :)

Kunwari walang problema yung pic :D

YIKEEE! Haha, my foot and my cousin's :)

That is THE cousin. You infertile butch. HAHAHA.

2006-06-15T02:09:00.000+08:00

Greetings from the bum that is I. Weow. Woew. Woew! :) I have nothing to say! It's 2:08 in the mohorneng! Wohooo! I'm sitting in the middle of somewhere. Why here? Because internet signal strength here is: EXCELLENT wahaha you know why? I'll tell you why! Because the router is just in front of me. Wohooo, nag wireless pa kami :D bwahaha. I hate you walls and other forms of obstruction :)

OH! OH! Since I'm using my laptop, I can upload and post pictures! Whoopee! So I will show you where somewhere is! Wow I'm so hyper. I hibernate! Bum, I tell you, buuum! I hibernate for almost 20hours. 5am[Wednesday]-1am[Thursday]. I just got off the shower and I'm having coffee now. Wahaaaaw. Anyway! Anyway! I am here:

Angle's bad, doesn't look like I'm in the middle of somewhere. Hrmph. But that will do for I am too lazy to take another shot weeeeeeeboom.

So so so.. The moon is lovely tonight! It's so lovely, it's making me feel emo! Weeeeemooooo.. Hahaha. See, we don't have Sun signal inside the house so I go out of our balcony and tadaaaa Sun is alive weee. And everytime I go out, I see the moon up above and the thing called looooove. Bwaha napakanta :D I see the moon and the Mayon and the alcoholics across the street. Now I show you the lalalalalovely moonie here:

Lovely, lovely isn't it? :)

Oh and this is me feeling silly and emo :D hahaha! Talagang siningit :D

Let there be a hole in the skyyyyy.

Yehey. Thehere :) Bye bye :)

2006-06-12T18:57:00.000+08:00

Freedom is love. Hello it Independot day.

Maya na update, antagal ng connecthion.

BYE! :P

2006-06-06T20:14:00.000+08:00

I lost my wallet. ATM, Credit cards, other cards and 400 bucks. Rar. Now I'm broke. And my mother's going hysterical. A few hours ago, she sounded so gentle and loving. Now she's yelling at me. Rawr. I can't believe I lost my wallet. This is the first time I lost a wallet. Fucking 06.06.06. But good thing I'm broke today. Phew. And good thing I used up all the dollars my father and aunts and uncles gave me. And another good thing, I found 75pesos worth of loose change. Yey I'm not broke! :D

Hay, sumalangit nawa ang aking wallet. :(

PS I think I will AtSCA's Silaban Photo Contest. Hmm.. I will zink about it :)

Buy.

2006-06-06T11:37:00.000+08:00

Demit Kadit!

Hahaha.

Wala, naisip ko lang bigla na may NSTP na kami tapos naisip ko yung ROTC tapos naisip ko yung kanta ng Eheads na Yoko. Demit Kadit :D hehehe. Stik tu da wol bot op yu tri dont aybol mi in da ay drap gib mi handred en ten tuntung kanan sabay-sabay!

Bwaha.

Bow.

Halort. Just got my Regform. And Lou's too. She's not here, that lazy bitch, hahaha. I'm going to enroll her. Wag na lang kaya kita i-enroll, 'no Lou? Para akin na yung check mo. Bwahaha >:) Hmm.. I think it's a fine idea :)

I didn't fail Psych :) Hurray.

I'm hungry. Grumble grumble.

♥
ruthie.

PS! PS! Dantes, I ate Belgian waffles with Strawberry sryrup and whipped cream this morning :) and the other day. And I might as well eat waffles for lunch :D HAHA I'll give you corned beef :)

Tralalalalalaaaa..

♥
ruthie.

2006-06-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

TO the period in my cbox: Hahaha, ., I think I know who you are now :) You're using Globalink, your IP address is 203.115.148.18 :) You're using prepaid. I will kill you when I get home, ok? :) Take good care of yourself now.. I don't want you to die without me >:) ♥ ruthie

2006-06-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

Hello! :) Summer is here again. Yey! I will invade Bicbic nek week :D After enrollment! WOOO! :P

Was supposed to go to Binondo yesterday just for foodtrip but nyek walang nangyari, haha. I just bonded with my ECE blockmates at za Zormie. Waw, ECE na ako. Haha asa. D, they were [were, huhu] my Psych blockmates :) Yey! Marnelli [sp?], Gen, Thea and Pao F [yes, Cla and Twin's Pao] and moi gambled haha. Random games, bwahaha. Around 8pm, we had to part ways babay huhu hehe :P I went to NBS and bought movies movies bec I don't have anything to do yuck haha yey! :D [what ang labo ng pinagsasasabi ko] The end.

To make it short, I finished watching around 6am then then then samamabits I felt emo!! Hahaha. Suddenly, tears were falling down falling down. Tears were falling falling down, my fair lady. @_@ Bwaha. The end.

Now for a survey I got from my bitch :)

The Who's

Who is in the house with you? - Strangers.
Who was the last person to IM you? - I don't remember..
Who are you thinking about now? - SEX as always. hahaha loko lang. --HAHAHA! You really are a bitch :D I agree, hmmm... hahaha! joklang!
Who did you last talk to on the phone? - Kiki's mom haha
Who's house did you last go to? - Hmm.. Kiki's, probably.
Who do you sit next to in your 2nd period class? - Fil class, Aze :)
Who is you favorite teacher? - Sir Atienza! :)
Who's birthday is next? - Rache, I think. June 29! :)
Who do you wish you were with right now? - Brandon Boynk.
Who's you favorite relative? - ahhhh walang ganyanan hahaha --onga, walang ganyanan :P
Who gets on your nerves the most from your school? - Yung badtrip teachers, haha

The What's

What was the last thing you ate? - KFC chickie
What was the last thing you drank? - cokey
What color pants are you wearing? - pink. este black haha
What kind of cell phone do you have? - N7610
What is the closest item near you that is blue? - my shirt.
What do you like about school? - No to school!
What is your gender preference (guy or girl)? - herms are cool :D
What are you wearing on your feet? - plastic. wahahaha. joklang, dyaryo. este sinelas.
What instant messaging service do you use? - ym
What is your favorite color? - wala na ata e.
What is your screen name? - ruthiepie/ruthiemaria
What is your most used away message? - hahaha! :D or wahahahaha! :D or a gazillion emoticons. or gago anokaba.
What is your favorite website? - peternorth.com HAHAHAHA JOKE :D
What is your favorite shoe brand? - Adidas and diesel :P and chuckies :D
What do you wear more; jeans or shorts? - jeans
What is the last movie watched? - dvc
What song do you currently hear? - Ska Linti by Point Click Kill [haha Cha! I'm checking them out now :D Hah Nakakaaliw]

The When's

When did everyone become obsessed with myspace? - like. 3 years ago. yung network boom hahaha biglang may friendster, myspace, hi5, all that stupid STUFFS HAHAHAH --agree :)
When did you start school? - I have no idea.
When did you meet your current best friend? - i don't know. maybe when i was still in my mudra's tummy.
When is your birthday? - nov181988
When did you last go to the mall? - err.. tuesday.
When did you last buy a new pair of pants? - tagaaaaaaaaaaal na.
When did you last burn a candle? - maybe i will later.
When were you last at school? - wednesday :) Hello ISO dorm :P
When did you last see your dad? - year ago, sorry.

The Where's:

Where do you go to school? - Ateneo de Manila
Where do you live? - dormitoryana *_*
Where is your phone? - in my mouth
Where are your parents? - bicol and ista-te.
Where do you sleep? - in YOUR room baby ;) --same answer :D
Where do you shop the most? - have no idea.
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? - market! market!
Where did you last take a car ride to? - ateneo to izwud
Where in your house are you? - i'm not in my house, stupid :P

The Why's

Why are you taking this survey? - have nothing to do.
Why do you have a xanga? - yes.
Why does basically half the world have a myspace? - wag naaaa..
Why did you pick your myspace user name? - it's my name DUH
Why do we have to go to school? - to have something to do.
Why are people labeled (like emo, goth, prep etc.)? - for easy reference haha
Why is wood brown? - why do you ask sucker
Why do the people on the news repeat the same stuff over & over? - that's life :D

That's all, haha. May gagawin pa ako kuno.. Hay secret :) bwahaha. >:)

Buh-bye! :)

Have fun y'all! :)

&hearts;
ruthie.